Sunday, 5 June 2011

Morning Note - March 26th 2010

Life is worth a living, a day of crying session had ended, I never felt this happy before in my life. I can see that the ray of light has painted the eastern sky.. It's the sign of a new day, new hope and new beginnings..

I found a "One in a Million" man, for I guess, I am a "One in a Million" woman too.. And let God smile upon me, let the angels sing between the clouds for I have found him.. Even though I have to let him walk away from me, let this be a moment that I cherish as a 'Once in a Lifetime' opportunity and the revelation on what love truly is..

A bunch of dark clouds may cover my sky, or an awful cancer may come to me n take my life away, but no one or nothing can take the faith and love within me forever...For I will always have the faith that I deserve to receive n posses the light in my darkest nights n God's hand in the presence of the one that I love as the one I hold..

Have a wonderful day to all my dear friends and family...thank you for your love n support, kind of having the feeling that all of you had sent me a special prayer last night... I love you all..

Lisa Fransiska Sitompul

Who would imagine

Who Would Imagine

by Lisa F Sitompul on Wednesday, 17 March 2010 at 22:05

I know I can't do anything to change the past as much as I have no recollection on what lays upon the future. But I know one thing for sure, I have a heart, big enough to know where to stand and when I have to synchronize what I feel inside my heart with what I have in mind, and surrender to the fact that the only thing to do is sit in silence, and believe that God will complete what I have started with dignity and one day, He will deliver me to His Glory.

Who would imagine what will happen tomorrow, we aren't wise enough to say to ourselves that we are dare to face all, both happiness and sadness. The moment u know that your heart is willing to try, just make sure that u actually ready for all possibilities, including the possibility to make the hardest decision or the possibility to get hurt. We all got hurt n cried once a while, but maybe today is the day to get rid of those negative thoughts n start your day with a winner mind set, for you were created by our the Greatest Creator. And I always believe that I’m precious enough to be loved by Him and by that reason; I knew it very well that he will never put me on a platform of humiliation by believing that I will always find my happiness at the end of every rainbow after terrible storms.

Everything happens for a reason, and I have the honour to look at the east side of the sky, wait for the sunrise, praise the Lord and make my simple wish for my babies, my family, my dearest friends, my students, my colleagues and some strangers that captured my attention. I have learned to communicate with my heart and the Lord by many simple unexpected things; I guess I’m blessed with the ability to see things differently in life, and sometimes, I have these amazing moments of finding courage to do something that I fear the most.

But, does everything really worth a try? What is the most important thing that you have to calculate the moment you’re willing to open your heart to options and new possibilities? Or, should you stay inside your secure zone and let things passed you by no matter what it is? We all didn’t come to the planet with the ability to run or do the things that we can do now. We were born as vulnerable beings, nothing much that we could do, we even had no ability to survive like other creatures at their earliest time of life. But, by God’s abundant love, we were surrounded by the people that cherished us so dearly, God also blessed us with the experience of falling down and hurt our knees the moment we were learning how to walk on our own feet.

I have learned that instead of having this Heavenly Wisdom, our God is also a very unique and humorous individual; He loves to make jokes just like us. In some points of my life, I think He’s having His own amusement by letting me twist my mind around and try to figure out what would I do and what decisions should I take. But then again, He’s a generous and kind God that never freeze our feet when He didn’t want us to walk to the path that He didn’t approve. He didn’t shut our lips when He didn’t want us to say things that didn’t please Him. He didn’t tell us when, where, who or why to obstacles that lays on our journye or; He also didn’t show us which way to lay our eyes when we really need to see this and that. He blessed us with this ‘Free will” to choose and use the heart, mind and soul that He had given to us as instruments to see things the way He does.

Yes, we all blessed with that abilities, we just didn’t realize it! We were too busy with our sadness; we were too occupied by our grief and sorrow, without acknowledging that God actually had poured the sensitivity to see things clearer and wiser. Sadness is the legacy of the past and regrets are the pain of memory. The only way to get rid of sadness is to throw away this legacy and receive God’s new promise and believe in what you feel deep in your heart. And stop regretting for things, this is the only way to let go the pain and avoid yourself from killing the great and happy memories in you!

Maybe you were sitting in tears, listening to someone saying things that hurt you so much; you might regretting your decision to open your heart to a person that never had the courage to tell you how much he/she needed you to stand right next to him/her; or you might trying to tell your self, ‘What on earth am I doing with this person? He didn’t even have the guts to see himself as a complete person to love me? He kept using the term that he’s not ‘good enough’ to close the door of possibilities that we might meant to each other!” Well, I can give you hundreds of other painful things just to complete the reasons for you to cry, but I also can tell you this, who would imagine if you didn’t do what you had done? Who would imagine how bitter you could be by the cause that you didn’t see the possibility to open your heart ever again? And Who would imagine how dark your life and nights if you didn’t have that painful conversation, the moment that you heard the rejection is the moment that you could learn that you are not a rejected object, and you are beautiful just being YOU!

You are deserved to be loved, cherished and adored for you were born as a lovable baby once, and yes, you are lovable until this very moment. Look at your own reflection in the mirror, and see the beautiful YOU in it, let there be sparkles of diamonds around your face, let there be a joyful sounds of angels the moment you sing the songs of hope, and most of all, let there be love and hope shines through your eyes. And with this moment of grace, let your heart receive the blessing of feeling good about yourself, and let this positive energy shines through out your life, and effect the people in your surroundings with a positive and heavenly way too, for you know how to do things with a great deal of love within YOU.

I wish you to always believe that even though you’re disappointed by human’s decisions and plans, you will always have the courage to see that God has greater, grander plans for you. And the only way to see and understand those plans is through keeping your courage to do things as best as you can as your contribution to love, life and the people around you.

Love to you all, God be with you, always...

Lisa Fransiska Sitompul
March 18th 2010

Another amazing day…March 3rd 2010

I woke up with swollen eyes this morning, for I was a bit worried about one of my cousin that I love so dearly. And the worrying session completed by a phone call that reminded me of some painful things that occurred in my life, years ago…

I was trying to finish one of my music score for my Junior High School students, but I couldn’t do or think of anything at all! And without any warning, I also couldn’t stop my tears, rolling down on my cheek. I couldn’t really tell anyone about it, I don’t really know how to express my sadness; I just got stressed out and sat in stillness. I tried to do something but I couldn’t! As an addition I also got this agonizing head ache from the moment I tried to get the news on my dearest cousin.

But the second I got the news, I was smiling and whispered, “Thank you Lord! Even though I have to wait for another 12 hours or so, but you’ve showed us your love n mercy by the chance to know that things had worked out according to our prayers..I believe in Your love n now... I can hold him in my mind, whispering my prayers to the angels to be with him by the grace of Your love, thank you my precious LORD!

But then again, I realized something; I was so worried because of what? My lack of trust in God’s love to me! And again, I was stunned, and what I have in mind is how am I going to express my apology to Him for I’ve doubted His Greatness and His amazing Love towards my family and I. But then I whispered again,

“Dear Lord, You are the owner of my life, I would cause You another pain if I live in regrets, You’ve always wanted me to stand tall again every time I fell down, You are the Lord of joy, and now, I can jump in joy n say.... "My sadness is not more than a legacy of the past...every second of my life is Your gift, the precious moment of learning and reveal so many secrets of life! And now I can say to me that I've learned my lesson n passed the moment of doubting the power of love n prayers.”

I never thought that I could go this far, I never had the picture of how beautiful my life is at the moment, I am surrounded by amazing people, loved by so many souls, and the most amazing thing is…, I still can be a young girl, for my family and my surroundings provide me with the treasure of youth within me! Einstein said once, darkness doesn’t exist, we recognized darkness by the lack of light, as much as cold also does not existed, for we recognized cold by the lack of heat.

So, we might have no ability to measure the light in our life without any knowledge of how would darkness looks alike, and the word 'happiness' would lose its meaning if it were not balanced by sadness. We had to shed tears in order to cherish the laughter in our lives, we must witness the dark sky at dawn to actually have the ability to enjoy the beautiful ray of light that shine after that.

And for that, I will greet the rest of the day with love in my heart. And how will I do this? Henceforth will I look on all things with love and I will be born again. I will love the orange sky right before the sun sets to rest, I will love the rain for it cleanses my spirit and pour me a joy and happiness. I will love the light for it shows me which way to go; yet I will love the darkness for it shows me the stars. I will welcome courage, strength and all simple happiness in my life for it enlarges my heart; yet I will endure sadness for it opens my soul. I will acknowledge rewards for they are my due, the signature of the best thing that I had done to all my loved ones; yet I will welcome obstacles for they are my challenge.

Thank you for to all my dear friends and family for their love and support, God be with you all…

Lisa Fransiska Sitompul
March 3rd 2010

Generated by

“What is the thing that actually generated by grace in our life?


If I have to pick one answer, I would choose love, but does love generated by grace?

In my opinion, the only way to generate anything in us is by serving and one thing about serving, we need no school to know how to serve, we do not have to learn any certain knowledge to serve, but we do have to pay something in order to serve.

And again, there is no certain currency in the term of ‘pay something in order to serve’ for the only currency required is a heart full of grace, and the only way to have a heart full of grace is by

* recognizing each blessing that we receive in every second of our life,
* understanding that we all own the wealth to share anything we have with others,
* spreading the happiness by the simple things we have in us sincerely,
* cherishing the friendship that we have,
* realizing that our intelligence is one of God’s given instrument to see things clearer and
* sharpen our awareness to each other,

By these rich, full of gift reasons we came to the point where love takes a significant part of our life, we’ll be overwhelm by the fact that our soul is actually also generated by love too.

I wish you all to have a wonderful start of the month, full of courage, and the strength to believe that you do have the life that generated by grace and love… I love you, God be with you all…

Always, with love,
Lisa Fransiska Sitompul
March 1st 2010.

Persistent Rain

How can I ease your weary heart? How I can wipe away your tears… To be honest, I have no answers to those questions, but I have just written my simple prayer to a dear friend of mine:

I believe you can always stand tall in all storms my dear, just hold on and let God bless you with the discovery beyond all questions. Let go all agitation and let my shoulder be the place to lean on your weary head, as much as I aware that I can’t do much to ease anything, but still, I do have the heart to say; “Through what ever stands right before your very eyes, you have me by your side and you can turn to me any time at all, no matter what happened!”

Life is never easy, most of the times, things aren’t fair too. But what can we do about it? We can sit and regret all the things that had occurred in our life, or we can blame everything to ease the pain. But, are those things really worked out? Are those things helped you to survive this cruel world as a complete person or will you let this hostile ground that we stand on create a person full of bitterness in you?

Sometimes, I really want to call out loud to God and ask why on this and that. There were the times when I sat down and asked myself, why some people are cruel enough to walk away after they did a certain painful things to other people and act like nothing happened? But hey! They’re all humans just like you and I! What do you expect? Their imperfections are exactly the same as yours and mine! Then I thought again; ‘What should I do about it?’, and what I found was, the moment I had these thoughts, I started to create a persistent remonstrance against the Lord. Those questions drove me to doubts and uncertain destinations!

Just like a persistent rain, painful things are occurring over and over again in our life. The path of our life sometimes drag us to be a non believer, the pain by our broken heart can brings us to a disconcerting attitude, but.., do we really want this agitating things occupied our heart and mind? And there were the times when the world pointed out its judgments toward us, and there were also the times when people have the heart to do things with the mask of sincerity, drawn us into a circular agony, at the end, what we felt is the condemnation of perpetual exile from our own heart and the people that we love the most! And believe me; the moment you reached this stage, you’re going to shut down the light of your heart, lock the door of your mind to greatness awaits for you and you’re about to be a super annoying person.

I have all the reason to say “Thank God” for every painful, bitter and unfair thing that occurred in my life, I had heard someone said to me once, be good to yourself, and he said, ‘Let it be’ to many agonizing things that happened to me. He taught me to sit alone in stillness, think of nothing, believe and think about the things that I love the most. Let great memories fill my heart and mind, think about the moment I did nothing but listen to the song that being sung by someone thousands of miles away, and other amazing things that anyone ever did for me! And his guidance had led me to the point where I realized that God loves me that much by the love of the people in my surroundings.

And I guess, I also have all the reason to never fear the rain anymore, it’s quite funny when everyone say, “Hey, it’s running out there, you can get sick!” while what I had in mind was, “Oh, it’s raining, cool!”. And now, I know that I’m blessed by the thought of amazing things every time the rain falls, I always have this thought of running under the rain, kissing under the rain, playing soccer under the rain, ride a bicycle under the rain or even just walking alone under a very heavy rain! The thought of getting wet, feel the cold water runs through my head to toe give me certain happiness inside! There’s no more pretending that I’m alright, because…, I AM ALRIGHT!

A man chuckled once when I ended a sad story with,

“Ugh, but then again, what the heck? I’ll be alright!”

And the moment he stopped the chuckling session, he said,

“Yes, you’ll be alright my lady, you always do. That’s the privilege of being a Lady Hitler, and I know that you will always have the strength to carry on, no doubt about that!”

Somehow, that moment had become the pedestal of a new courage, the sign of a fulfilled promise that I can move on. The persistent rain of painful and hurting things had turned out to be the persistent rain of happiness, new hope and new strength. I don’t have to walk thousands of miles to leave all pains; I don’t have to ask questions to get answers. I have enough faith to see things beyond belief, and the thought of there’s a certain beauty in imperfections had created a sublime reliance of God’s love inside of me.

And by this amazing blessing, I would say to you, my dear friends, you will never walk alone; have the faith that the only thing that makes you tremble to carry on your journey is the thought of your imperfection, the lack of beliefs in your abilities and strength! I’m not asking you to have an over confidence attitude, but I do ask you to believe that the only impossible thing in life is when you start to have doubts in what you have in you! Yes, things do look unreachable, yes, indifference in way of thinking make you an awkward person among the ordinary, but how come you do something extraordinary by doing things in ordinary ways? Just do your best and put a great deal of love in what ever you do, and let what the ancient used to call as destiny by the will of God do the rest. You might not see the result now, but you’ll see, and when you have the smile of the satisfaction by doing what you believe, you’ll remember me, a simple woman who said once that she would always be there for you, as you were always be there for her, you just didn’t realize it.

I wish you all to have the great happy smile every time you wake up in the morning with a faith that a great day will come to you the moment you believe that persistent rain of love, joy, happiness and strength keeps coming back for you again and again… I love you, God be with you all.


Lisa Fransiska Sitompul

February 21st 2010.

Double Miracle

I didn't sleep much, a bit hard to understand why I actually have this "Short Term Sleeping Disorder”. But since I was around 16, I couldn't sleep more than 4 hours in a day, I didn't really notice this as a problem, well, I guess, I always find something to do if I couldn't manage to make my self sleeping. But now, I'm thinking about changing this habit of mine, and start a better life, a healthier life..., "I'm not that young anymore", had become of the reason. Nevertheless, as I've gain the maturity as a person, I have to learn to love myself more and more too, I found that, it's also one of the way to show to God, how much I love Him.

I woke up quite early this morning, not as early as I use to wake up, well, it's Sunday! And I was very lucky, in this fine morning, I went to an early mass with both of my beloved aunt and my little brother.

Considered that today is the first Special Day of the year, and I'm honored to add a special detail on this lovely Sunday and call it as The Double Special Day, for it's the day of The Chinese New Year and the Valentine's Day. A New Year has always been a good start; it doesn't matter whether it's an International New Year, a Chinese New Year, or any other New Year at all. The symbol and the spirit of a new beginnings, new chances and new hopes are the real essence of the event! And those amazing things are blended in one with the sweetest event of the year, the day when every one all around the world is celebrating Love.

The singers are look so charming in their black suits with dark magenta shirt inside it; the altar was decorated in Pink and red, with some lantern and love signs all over it. I sat with my brother while my aunt sat right in front of us next to some of her friends. The mass was amazingly cheerful and full of blessings, by the smile n happy looking eyes from the people I see around me. And when the Priest started his session of sharing (I like the term he's using, "sharing"), and somehow, his voice reminds me of someone.

Life could bring us to funny places sometimes, and there I was, sitting, listening to someone talking with the same voice with a person that I care so dearly once. It is quite popular that I'm a detailed person, some people are amazed by the accuracy of my profiling on something or someone, and yes, this is the main reason why I got stunned listening to the Priest's voice. The astonishing was completed at the time when I reached my small notebook in my handbag. I opened the page randomly, and I found a note that I wrote a couple of months ago. For the second time, I was stunning, and out of the blue, a warm tear drop rolling on my cheek.

"I just want you to know that things aren't going to be the same anymore...I wrote this to let you know that my soul had experienced something that we could say as a retraining process…”accidently, I read this sentence in my notebook. This is something that I wrote when I was experiencing one of the beautiful things in life, but then I let it go at the same time without any hesitation. And suddenly, the image of the person that I care so much once is tangling in my mind that very moment. I closed my eyes for a couple of second, and whispered to God, “Oh God, please help me to let it go one more time, I’ve managed to walk away and never look back, You are the creator of my heart, and You are the owner of my life, please oh please let me let go..”

‘The free will’, this is one of the blessings that God granted to us, humans. He never actually tells us what to do, or not to do something. He has His funny way to let us experience love, pain and all kind of different things to strengthen our soul, heart and mind. I was angry once, I got so upset when this man popped up in my life after so many years and let me know that he has some difficulties to push me out of his mind. But somehow, I adored him at the end, for he has the power to control and manage this given by God blessing, he taught me that we can be what we want to be on the presence of God, and what we have towards each other became something far beyond the word ‘beautiful’ itself! Nevertheless, we all humans, and yes, I miss him, but again, thank God…, once again, I had the power to let go of the feelings that I have inside by the thought that some things are better left unrevealed n left out for the sake of everything.

Not all are understandable in life. I don’t understand things most of the times, like the other day, I could sat in front of someone, embarrassed myself for I forgot about the answer from a quiz that I made! Isn’t that crazy or what? And when I got home, I just realize that I was just being so stupid or nervous? I could stand in front of so many people and explain things like it was the most simple thing in Math or Science, but I was so dumb in front of a person, this is not usual, well, one thing for sure, this is not me, definitely not! But this is what I call as a ride in a roller coaster; I had the thrill of curiosity, the chill of feeling hopeless in front of someone. But may be we need to experience it sometime, well…to be honest, I liked the ride (smiling)! And God has His certain purpose to let us meet certain people, we’re living in an imperfect world, but as long as we fill our heart with a bucket full of good intentions, we can always hanging on our hopes and still.., we can also stay in a good condition.
So, today, a fine Sunday, February 14th, 2010, I realized that we all are blessed by God by double celebrations, double happiness, and I guess, we all deserve double miracles too…, I guess the remembrance of the person that touched my heart so deep once and still have the ability to let the feelings go at the same time, had turned out to be the blessing that given by God to me. I’m so blessed by the love in my surroundings, maybe what I think as miracles are just ordinary things to most people, but I think, the ability to see miracles in your surroundings is also one the blessings of experiencing the miracle itself.

I wish you all a very Happy Chinese New Year, may we all have the ability to see the blessings in disguise that we encounter every single day, and may the prosperity of heart and mind be a constant miracle for all of us. And may God bless each one of us with the heart to love what we have in our hands, cherish what we’ve achieved and see things with the eye of love by the remembrance of this lovely Valentine’s Day. God Bless you all.

February 14th, 2010
Lisa Fransiska Sitompul

Lisa's favorite Status in January 2010

January 31st, 2010
Lisa F Sitompul says, "We all humans,we all get hurt n experience pain in our life,but having a new passion will help us on having the spirit of forever being born..for me..the overthrow of one dream will always means the rise of another one.I simply suggest all of u to NEVER surrender each time u encountered obstacles n pain,everybody...y cries so if you have to cry,just cry,after with urself,build ur courage,again n again..then...keep on moving forward..Believe me,you'll have the satisfaction of saying to urself,"I got through that one n here I am,still standing n well.."

Lisa F Sitompul is thanking God for great memories and magical loving stanzas sent by all my dear friends..Simple things are great n great things are simple! As simple as a little girl's voice,the greatness of life lies and became a reminder to us on how much love we had received along the way,a great way to cherish all the caress n t...ender touches..n a wonderful way to miss the one we love the most.Have a wonderful sunday to all,Gbu

January 30th, 2010
Lisa F Sitompul is happy by the sight of a cloudy day.. I am a person who always encountered amazing things almost every day,sometimes I got annoyed (..and shocked too...) by that fact,but then again I think...I'm different n special,that's why those amazing things happened to me,and instead of having the heart attack by the surprise,...I started to see it as a blessing in disguise...given directly from heaven..I guess the moment we BELIEVE that the Lord has elevated our life,we also have to stop seeing our life in an ordinary way,that's a good start..then you'll ready to receive amazing and special things too...
Have a wonderful week end to all my dearest friends and beloved family.

January 29th, 2010
Lisa F Sitompul has just received a prayer from my dear big brother.. I'm so blessed by the love of my family, so happy to know that I always have the chance to see my Lord's love from the warm love and tender caress given by my family and some dearest friend, I wouldn't come this far without them, and the only thing I should do now learning to accept the choices that I had made,wish for more courage..n keep on moving forward..

January 28th, 2010
Lisa F Sitompul says,"Good morning happiness..Don't let anyone or anything sabotage ur attempt to live or to be above average.. U might look,walk,talk n think differently from other people.. So what? U R U,with ur own qualities..! Start directing ur life n expecting God's favor with things above life's challenges,BELIEVE for a great f...uture,then it's URS..n it's coming to U.. Have a great day to all! GBU,muuuach!!

January 27th, 2010
Lisa F Sitompul says, "Every journey starts with a simple first step make your move then you'll have the right to say, I'm moving forward... You also can't cross the sea merely by standing and staring at the water, make the first jump,get wet, then you'll have the courage to say I'm crossing to the other side.."

Lisa F Sitompul whispers...what a great gift when I slept and dreamt,I had the vision that life was joy. Then I awoke and saw that life was service too...and what a wonderful thing when I actually captured the message and behold...that service brings joy. Uhm, I guess this is what we call as living our life to the fullest...amazing!

Lisa F Sitompul says, "Life is something that God has given to us n we earn it by giving our life back to Him in a certain way.Many people do things without knowing the purpose of what they've been doing in their life.Even the smallest creature such as an ant has its part and its contribution,so...I think this is the right time to see... things deeper and take our part..."

Lisa F Sitompul is missing the moment of... running under the rain, kissing under the rain, kicking ball under the rain, riding my bicycle under the rain, singing under the rain, but most of all... I miss looking at the rainbow after the rain.

January 26th, 2010
Lisa F Sitompul has just realized that it's almost a quarter of century for her to care about and keep on loving one of her dearest friends...And God had His purposes to lead us to
this point, and I would never changed anything in my life, for it might
change the path that I took to find u in the middle of the journey of
my existense...( Dewi & Lisa F Sitompul... and I guess, we both ready for another quarter of century of a great friendship.. with no limitation to the counting til both of our souls has to leave the planet)

Lisa F Sitompul is glad for today,so many things I learned today.. As I said before,I'm learning while I teach n today I learned that I'm in love with these kids,I guess... I had found my sanctuary from my loneliness.

Lisa F Sitompul says,"Let us all learn 2look things beyond what our eyes can see,God never wanted us 2b ordinary,there must be something special about each 1 of us.Something special doesn't mean something important or big,it can be something different that we do 2our loved ones,make them laugh by something that u never did before or anything at all..

January 25th, 2010
Lisa F Sitompul is holding 2the positive thought that she deserves 2be loved will help her 2survive..I know God's favor is surrounding me like a shield,I also believe that He's blessing me with His heavenly strength n deliver me 2my triumph,many things can come 2my presence n stand on my way,but I'll have a bigger vision,I'll always h...ave the courage 2say 2myself,"I'll get through this for I'm loved by the Almighty Himself" Gbu all.

Lisa F Sitompul says,have the faith that God is holding the brush and ready to paint a great a image of u today!U are precious and beautiful in His presence n u have no idea how many colors He can draw in the painting of U!
Stop limiting urself n God's favor on u,build the attitude of a good child to show how much u love Him by doing u...r best in everything, then u'll see..He'll also put no limit upon u too..Gbu all...

January 24th, 2010
Lisa F Sitompul is wishing that this great beginning will continue as a wonderful journey. And I'm trying to let go off this fear I'm having inside,the thought of making another wrong decision has been hanging all over my head since God knows when.. I thank God for today n I guess, I'm thanking for the opportunity of having this seren...ity and some time alone,some kind of a refresh to level up my strength..

January 22nd, 2010
Lisa F Sitompul says "Say no to defeat,failure n mediocrity,start your day with an expectation that great things will happen to u.Have the faith that GOD will excel your life to rise above the life's challenges,believe GOD for better future and you shall have great things coming!!" T.G.I.F..I wish u all to have the smile n wrap up eve...rything when u can cheer up n shout,"Done..n I did well" GBu all..

January 21st, 2010
Lisa F Sitompul whispers...When things seems so wrong,find ur serenity,let the silence sharpened ur senses n witness the revelation of all secrets of life n gain the wisdom to see things clearer..

Lisa F Sitompul says.. "Bonjour... May God bless u with the heart to always believe in hope,sometimes He let us to experience the greatness of making the choices in our life,the hardest the choice u make,the stronger u build ur character,so..just BELIEVE.. Have a great day to everyone,God be with u all!"

January 20th, 2010
Lisa F Sitompul says,the true essence of learning is how we see things in life,explain things in our surroundings to our youngsters n how we make everything around us as classrooms,not only for knowledges,but for the lesson of life too..Life itself is a never ending learning process,for me,I learn when I teach,I hear when I whisper,I ...see when my students look n I understand more when they're wondering n ask for explanations.GBu all

January 19th, 2010
Lisa F Sitompul says,"To experience God's Immeasurable favor,we all must start expecting His great blessings,have 'the best' attitude inside,get rid off everything that can turn u down,see things with one faith that everything is never will be an impossible task as long as we believe that we were created by the Best Creator and we al...l meant to do the best things in life!Have a great day to all,GBU

January 17, 2010
Lisa F Sitompul is watching "The Spy next door with the kids", I got so touched when Jacky said,"Family is not about who's blood u'r's about who u love and the people who love u.."the next scene was..Jacky got slapped by the woman he loves n he had 2leave the kids that he began 2care about..nice movie,highly recommended f...or all 2see..u'll see guys, are amazingly annoying n amazing at the same time,hehe..

Lisa F Sitompul says,"Start think BIG things,erase negative mind set inside..Make bigger space inside your heart n mind to increase your own thinking,enlarge ur visions to greater things n believe that God will strengthen u to pass all obstacles! Our Lord will bless u with new,fresh n creative ideas the moment u have the fighter to be... a winner attitude! Happy sunday to all. God be with U!

January 16th, 2010
Lisa F Sitompul says, "Buenos Manana a todos! What a gloomy and cloudy morning, but let our heart believe that even though the clouds are starking up the sky,the sun is there,its hidden but its there's any chance that u're in pain or hurt inside,keep on believing,that God loves you no matter what,n He will carry you in y...our hardest time,you are loved..." Dios te bendiga,les deseo a todos un fin de semana grande..

January 15th, 2010
Lisa F Sitompul says,"Don't let what u've gone through in the past thwart ur progress, today is a NEW DAY! And God definitely has prepared many great new things for u,a great new journey with ur name on it is ready for u, served with a great new strength full of courage in U! Have a wonderful day to all, God bless u!

January 14th, 2010
Lisa F Sitompul says..." TO HAVE A BETTER IMAGE OF YOURSELF ON THE OUTSIDE, YOU MUST FIRST PICTURE IT ON THE INSIDE.. Live from inside out instead of the other way, and let the Glory of God shines through your eyes, for you are one of His best creation! "
Lisa F Sitompul says,"I'm not going to let a bunch of hypocrite n narrow minded people make me feel bad about myself! As my father always said, a diamond would just be a piece of coal without a great pressure on can say whatever u want n do whatever u want as long as I do my best in what I do with a great deal of love in ev...erything that I do,that's it, nothing will change that!"

Lisa F Sitompul whispers.."If you packed ur dreams once,maybe this is the time to unpack them,let those visions of your heart fill ur heart n mind just like the fireworks on the dark night! Try to picture urself in the beauty scene of the world,ur dreams are in ur palm of hands now,never let them go!Reach them with a full power of n a bunch of new hope every time anyone or anything tries to break u down!

Lisa F Sitompul says,"Any kind of beauty has the ability 2catch anyone's attentions 4just a moment.but only a certain personality which is shined from the heart n body language that have the strength 2capture someone's heart n stay there 4eternity.Many women try 2look 10 years younger w/out realizing that feeling young inside makes th...em walk,act n talk like they're little girls w/ a bold beauty of thinking n THAT'S THE TRUE BEAUTY"

Lisa F Sitompul whispers,"The true essence of believing is always trust that no matter what, God has His own way of talking to us by everything that happens in our surroundings,and the only thing that we can do is keep on believing and try to always have the hope inside of will help us to survive, see n listen to the answers to our prayers.."

January 12th, 2010
Lisa F Sitompul has just found a very interesting fact.. "Making love can fill u with hope..with a scientific fact: As the brain revs up for sex,the production of stress hormones such as 'cortisol' will DROPS DRAMATICALLY..n the process ends up to a long,glorious,hopeful high feelings!" Is that so? But why being in love is so agonizin...g? For we all have to be in love to make one, right? Uhm..this is interesting...

Lisa F Sitompul says,"When you radiate hope n vitality n truly care 4 others,u send out a strong invitation of love..n one of the most important prerequisites 4 finding a loving relationship is believing that you will n always trust in ur heart that hopefulness always work its magic on others as well as to yourself"

Lisa F Sitompul whispers.."It's quite painful when u realize that u were just a diversion,a joyful ride that in one point u'll be the forgotten one..But I guess,we all can learn that as long as we do everything with a pure heart,God will help u to survive the pain of letting go..I learn my lesson..n sometimes..God wants us to learn n more by letting us to experience the pain of the lesson over n over again.."

January 9th, 2010
Lisa F Sitompul is reading the end of her own note: But one thing for sure, when u have to let things go, just try to believe, that maybe, just maybe, u can find a better path n a better way to cure ur broken heart of loosing,n I wish that each time we have to let go,we will have the honor to always remember that we actually stood somewhere for someone,even once.

January 8th, 2010
Lisa F Sitompul is looking through the hotel's window and thinking about the National Library, really want to go there n the exhibition of The Ancient Egypt is on the National Museum too...uhm..n I really want to go to the Red Dot Museum too n the Stanford Raffles statue, many place to visit,I hope we can manage to go to those amazing places!

Lisa F Sitompul had awaken almost 3 hours ago,looking at some books that I bought yesterday,I got an amazing book about how Walt Disney started everything!I think Walt is one of the most amazing man ever lived,he brought so many changes in the idea of believing to our dreams n keep on moving forward.. Well... as I always said,we can find the beauty of life by the simplest thing we encountered along the way n I think I'm blessed in a way when I found the book on the corner's shelf. It's quite impossible to find this book around now,complete with the first drafts on almost all his work! This book is the foundation on how we all can make a different as long as we believe..

January 6 at 6:35am
Lisa F Sitompul is on board... ugh..miss my babies n the kids already...

January 5th, 2010
Lisa F Sitompul says,many things in life is worth to fight for,but not all has to be reached by battle n the best thing to win them is by believing that one day,u'll smile to urself for u were just sit in silence with your simple prayers whispered in ur heart. For deep inside,ur heart has spoken to God directly n ur mind has controlled ur feelings n reached the maturity of what we call as being strong in every storm...

Lisa F Sitompul whispers, when the time to let go comes, the best thing that we can do is believe that letting go is the best way to say "I LOVE YOU" over and over again, and this love will always be an un-conditional love that we share with our loved once for we have the heart and the courage to be hurt inside and keep on our little ...prayers inside our hearts for them even though we're apart...God be with you

January 3rd, 2010
Lisa F Sitompul whispers,I'm learning that before we set our hearts too much upon anything,let us examine how happy those are who already possess it,maybe it will help us to cherish it even more when we actually have the opportunity to possess it one day.For reaching something is much easier than maintaining until the moment that we actually call something as 'ours'.

January 1st, 2010
Lisa F Sitompul says, today is zero one zero one ten.... hihihihi... Happy New Year to all my dearest friends n family... May God grant u the courage to always do everything with a great deal of love,the strength to always smile to every obstacles in life n the will to always believe in hope... God be with u all...

The whisper of a teardrop

Have you ever asked why we shed tears? Even for some tribes or clans, the rain is considered to be God's tears, falling to the earth, and maybe it was spread out by the wise to remind us that even God can cry by looking at what we have done in our life. We could experience something out of our control and sometimes, these out of control things are so painful, just like a sphere stabbed to our fragile heart. And the only thing that we couldn't help is to hold up the tear that came out of our eyes. But have you ever thought about how God also let us to experience to cry for happiness?

Life is cruel enough to let us cry for the happiness that seems to be in front of our eyes but somehow, we know that this happiness won't last or maybe, it will never be ours. But then again, look deeper...

I'm blessed by so many things, I'm blessed by the laughter as much as by tears, I'm blessed by the tender touch of my best friend's hand when she cried in front of the church, not more than an hour after she said her vows. Just like the tears that I shed the moment I had to stand in front so many people with so many questions in my head, "Am I doing the right thing?", "Where will all these scenarios lead me to?", or "I don't know whether I want to be here or not, so help me Lord!".

Even in this loneliness of mine I can see that I'm not alone, I still can see the love in my surroundings. I still can hear the laughter that my best friend and I had back in our teenage years, and somehow, it had been the reminder to me that I am loved. God had showed me in so many ways to cherish every hour in my life as His great painting of me. And giving up will never be an option! For I know that no matter what, I will always find a new strength, a new path to go through and yes, sometimes, life is so unfair, but I believe, we still can learn something in this unfairness and yet, feel the love of life inside of our heart!

So, when you are in the middle of the lowest point of your life, and you have no power to hold up your tears, try to listen to the whisper of your own teardrops. Unconsciously, you are listening to your heart more, you are magnifying your sensitivity of listening to what your deepest thoughts are whispering to you!

A woman might shed a tear when she kissed the man that she love the most, for she realized the things that only her heart has the knowledge of it. I was stunned one night by a song, sung by someone that I cherish so much, a tear fell down on my cheek and now I know, it wasn't a tear of my sad heart of missing him, it was a tear of joy, rejoicing to the Lord that I was loved in a beautiful way by someone! Maybe it's good for us to let our teardrop runs to our cheek, for we might not crying for something that we regretted, but for something that we praised for happening in our life.

Sometimes, we think we are strong because we can hold on, but strength lies in letting go, including letting go our soul and heart to be purified by crying. I said once, "Cry..., for crying is the proof that you are a real human being, you are not weak when you cry, let it go, let those tears fall and washed all of your sorrow, and learn to listen to the whispering sound of each teardrop, for you might growing the love in you and then you'll see and realize how far you've come and how big the strength given by God when you thought you are weak n fragile by the cause of shedding tears.

Be strong, but when you have to cry, just cry and let those tears whisper to you, let them strengthen you and remind you that you are pure, precious and loved by me and by our Lord. God be with you all, always...

With love,
Lisa Fransiska Sitompul
January 26th 2010

I'll be there for you

I experienced a very interesting journey on the New Year's evening, I had to sit and wait for more than 9 hours to reach Jakarta from a small city in West Java. Normally the journey between the two cities are not more than 3 or 4 hours. Well, actually, I spent almost 8 hours when I came, it wasn't a big deal if I was in a holiday or so, but I was trying to reach someone and I had to meet this person in office hours. So, in short, I spent my last two days of the year in a quite stressful situation, but somehow, I managed to pass through this one, again... Nothing to say, but Thank God for His mercy and kindness!

Never thought I would come to the small town at the first place, but to be honest, it will be the best two last days of a year ever! I was welcomed in a warm family, as I said to my friend, sometimes, I don't understand the way God shows His love to me. But this is one of the thing, I was treated so kind and warm, didn't feel like a stranger at all, met almost all the family's member, even Brownies, the dog of the family. The moment I entered the gate, I already felt the warmth and the caress from all. December was never an easy month for me ever, but I ended the month in a loving and amazing way.

The minute I arrived in Jakarta, I was still far away from where my family was waiting for me, but somehow, I could reach them on time. I cried when my cousin hold me the second I found him, but not like the year before, I cried for I was missing papa and mama so badly, but this time, the tears fell down by the unspoken joy, how I was so glad to be there with them exactly 15 minutes before the countdown of the end of the year! I was almost crying on the way, even though I was sending and receiving messages directly from my cousins,even though I got all the support that I could get at that time! But still, the effort of reaching them was seem quite impossible at that time! But, hey, everything ended up so amazing eventually!

This is worth a diamond to share, when I reached a point where I should get a taxi, the place was dark and empty, then I said to my cousins via message, "Oh, God, please send me a taxi..", Mas Monty, one of my dearest cousin replied, "Keep believing Lisa!" and I walked to a bright spot under the street light, with a prayer, "Oh God, hear my plea, please...You know what I need" and the moment I stepped on the sidewalk, a taxi appeared from the corner, I waved and jumped in the second it stopped right in front of me! The traffic was amazingly stuck and everything seemed like freeze, I dropped a tear when I realized that I might spend my New Year's eve on a taxi for God's sake! But then I said again, "Oh, come on, Lisa, you've reached this far, the angels would even lift this car and carry it if you believe so!". Once again, I closed my eyes, and suddenly I glanced to my left, I realized there was a gab between cars, I asked the taxi driver to go on that gab and we took an alternative road to reach the hotel where my family was waiting for me, and we managed to reach the nearest point, I paid the taxi, jumped out, and after I ran for almost a mile, I reached the place, just on time when the fire works were decorating the sky and I had the chance to witness the event in the arms of my beloved ones!

Maybe not everyone would consider this as a blessing, but for me, this event is a treasure! This is something that I can tell to my children and my grandchildren one day! This is a story that I can tell to my friends or students when they're down and think that things seem aren't worth to fight for! I learned something very precious in my last 48 hours in the year of 2009.

The moment I was in my cousin's arms, I cried, and he said, "Hey, what's the crying for, you're here!" but to be honest, what I heard was, "We're here darling, you have nothing to worry about..".

The world might not be so kind to us, the things aren't seem fair sometimes, but somehow,if we believe, we will always have the heart and the sensitivity to hear "I'll be there for you" from everyone in our surroundings! Just believe and never let go the hope in you, the rainbow will appear and end at the palm of you hands after every storm, and after the light actually filled the sky, you will find that the pennies from heaven is actually exist! It's the sparkling eyes of your loved ones, it's the cheering sound of people saying your name, and even though you're alone, or when the stars isn't shinning for you and everything seems so dark and gloomy, believe in one thing, you are not alone, cherish every smile by looking at your own smile through the mirror, memorize every wink and glance by looking at your reflections on the window of shops that you pass, feel again every kisses by touching your cheeks' skin, and let God do the rest! He will bless you with the love that flows so warm inside, and without you know it, you will have the amazing stanza inside of your heart, and one more amazing thing, you can always say, "I'll be there for you" to anyone, and transfer the same joy beyond compare that you've experienced...

Happy New Year to all my dearest friend and family, and what an honor to say to you all that I'll be there for you too...

Love to you all, always,

Lisa Fransiska Sitompul

PS: I said to a friend once, believe me, you can feel God's love...wake up at the dawn hour, go find the wet grass, walk with your bare feet, feel the cold dews and breath the freshness of the air right before the sun rise on the east side of the sky. Well, I guess I have an addition tip to feel God's love inside each of you...Who knows what will tomorrow bring, who knows where we'll go? But when we have each other, just hold on tight, and the caress doesn't have to be a physical appearance, first you have to believe, then you'll know who to talk to and once again, let the love of God filled your heart in a very simple way the moment you share...

A special thank you to Mama Erry, it's an honor to actually met you in person, ma'am.. To Ikky, I guess I have just being blessed by God by finding a new little brother.. and to Mas Donnie, thank you for everything, you had given an addition love to the word love itself..

To my beloved Family, thank you for all the support and love, to my little brother, Daniel, you're the best and to Mas Agung, thank you, you made things possible.... God bless you all.

Sing it from the heart...a memoir of an old lady

Can anyone give me that perfect explanation why some songs have the exact words to what is happening in our heart? A lullaby can make a baby sleep peacefully; a ballad about a broken hearted soul can make someone shed tears, what is the thing in a song that can turn our mood in a nick or time? Well, it happened to me too, one of the ways to cure my loneliness and the pain of missing my loved ones is through songs, I could feel my mama’s tender kiss and my papa’s tender hugs by listening to their favorite songs…

As I love to sing too, and one of the greatest memory of all is, since the very early time of my life, I surrounded by music! God had blessed me with the ability to sense and feel the music as something beautiful inside me! I guess that’s why there’s a soul in a song, a singer has in important job to deliver the soul of each words. A song writer has to blow the wind of life to each tune, and that’s exactly what happened one day. I was teaching my Broadcasting class, and I asked my students to have an imaginary screen in front of them, and try to picture what scene when they listen to a song that I played while I was reading my narration.

When I started the session, they were stunned, they were looking at me with a certain look in their eyes, sometime they smiled, and I stopped my narration when I realized none of them were writing! After I woke them up from their day dreaming, I continued the session, but still, the same thing happened in about 2 minutes after I started the narration again. But I let them be this time, and funny, I kind of enjoyed the way they look, I could see the innocence eyes full of excitement in their eyes.

And when I finished, they all smiled at me, sparks came out from their eyes, I smiled back at them, but when I asked them to collect their papers, they all shouted, “No miss, we saw the scene but we had no idea to write them in words!” I smiled at them and I asked them to try to do it again at home. And that morning, I made one of my student very happy, I made the narration based on her article project, after the class dismissed, she came to me with full astonishment and told me that she was so happy that I could adapted her idea into the narration.

And something amazing happened, I said,

“It’s just like singing a song dear, you can deliver the message as long as you sing it from the heart.”

She was stunned and smiled, nodded and once again, I saw a great spark came out from her eyes. After she walked away I just realized that I just said something that inspired her so much. I kind of having a moment alone after that, I sat in my room, alone; look at the Narration script again. Well, as I remembered, I opened my messages and read again one particular message that made me think about how people could say something strong enough to change our life’s vision, in a good way though.

And here I am, listening to some Christmas songs, alone, at I sang this song once in a church in Melbourne, with a great a choir as my background. It was an honored moment, and I could capture the Holy moments in each words of the song. The only thing that was missing in that amazing moment was the smile of my papa and mama. After the mass finished, I joined the tea time, and a woman came to me, and said

“Love, I was like floating between the clouds when you came to the bridge part, the one when you sang ‘For the bible tells me so..’ with some ‘oh oh..’ right before the over tune. It was so…how may I say.., you delivered the beauty of God’s love, the words seem didn’t really matter,”

I nodded at her like a Japanese girl (I was working in a Japanese restaurant at that time, so I guess it had become a habit) and saying my gratitude for what she’d said, then I smiled, suddenly, she said again,

“And one more thing, love, you have the amazing smile with a tender way of looking at people, “

I smiled again, blinked a couple of times and we ended up talking about this and that, and a week after that lovely evening, I went to her house. She invited me for dinner, and she cooked an amazing Gnoochi, one of my favorite Italian dishes. She’s been living alone for about four years, her husband passed away by cancer, when she served the apple pie, she asked me to accompany her to sit on her back porch, the view is so beautiful there, and we ended up sitting there for almost four hours. When I realized that the time was pretty late already, I said good night and the next thing I remembered was sitting in the tram, feeling so blessed by the time that I’ve shared with the old lady.

Now, I’m telling this story without knowing the old lady’s name. A bit torturing, for I can’t recall my memory, I tried to remember what happened after that night, I was still living in Laverton at that time, I sang in Dandenong, well, as far as I could see, the distance of both places are amazingly far too. I just heard the song that I sang in that church, “Jesus loves me”, but still, I couldn’t remember what happened next?

It’s odd, for I always remembered the moment when I sang in that church, I remembered when that lady talked to me for the first time, and I remembered the dinner, but why couldn’t I remember what happened next? Did I come again to visit her? Did I ever bought some flower and gave them to her? Was I there when she needed me? Did I ever sit on the cute back porch again? Or…, did something so painful happened and made my heart erased everything about the particular event?

I folded my hands just now, said my grace to the Lord, and I also told Him about this special lady, suddenly I kind of looking at her smile in a glance. And now…, I’m smiling alone, ‘Let it snow, let it snow, let it snow’ followed by ‘sleigh ride’ is on, also, in a glance, I remembered the smiles that I’ve seen in my whole life, the smiles of my loved ones, the smile of papa when we played our kites, the smile of mama when I lifted her once from Becak to the Train, back then in Semarang city, during the flood. We were going to Jakarta for my medication; I lifted her on my back for almost 1000metres for I didn’t want her to walk through the flood. And to be honest, I would reverse that time and lifted her again, walk for another thousands of miles, not just meters, if I could see that smile again.

Memories are treasures, I learned to cherish all in a certain frame both in my mind and heart. And if you are alone at the moment, things aren’t seemed right and hurting, try to remember that you made someone smile. Smile and taste the sweet showering inside you, love your life and keep on moving forward, giving your best to the life itself, rejoice in everything and believe me, you’ll gain a new strength, nothing can tear you apart.

It’s almost Christmas, guys…

Feel the love and the warmth of the season in the air, and see the smile of your loved ones, where ever you are, and God as my witness, let me say this simple prayers of mine for all of you. May God blesses you with the ability to sense the love in every smile, every winks, every giggles and every simple things that you share with your loved ones as treasures for eternity…

Lisa Fransiska Sitompul

(is listening I’ll be home for Christmas by Michael Buble)

December 4th 2009 (a day before Santa’s Birthday)

PS: A memoir to an old lady, and to you papa and mama, I miss you both oh so much…

Walking through the bush

Walking through the bush,
what do I hear?
The silence caused me a great fear,
but I have nothing to worry, for I have you near.

Walking through the bush,
what do I smell?
It's not the scent of the sea or the whale,
but then again, it changed from a scent into a sound of a bell.

Walking through the bush,
what do I feel?
My heart's wiggling like an eel,
suddenly my eyes got warm with tears waited to spill.

Walking through the bush,
what do I say?
Will I ever found another way?
To see your face once again, someday...

Saturday, November 21st 2009
Written in less than 10 minutes, in a Writing Session
Lisa Fransiska Sitompul

My Fav-STATUS from October 19th 2009 - November 13th 2009..Counting the hours to enter "the zone"

Lisa F Sitompul is giggling..(even though my eyes hurts) yesterday,my son attended a story telling competition,when he got home,he said, "Mom, aku nggak menang,tapi kok banyak banget sih cewek yang minta berphoto sama aku?" My eyes are hurting n I have 2stay in my room again,being quarantinized..again,but why am I having a wonderful feeling inside?And hey..2day is Friday the 13th right?COOL! >>>November 13th 2009

Lisa F Sitompul says, "The essence of having the conscious 2see things with the eyes of your heart is 2have the courage 2let go things the moment u have them in the palm of your hands.. we all want everything 2work out according 2what we want,but hey,u can't have it all!There's a time when u have 2say 2urself,it's not about having it,it's about the honor of holding 2something that u believe in u" Have a great day!GBU >>> November 12th 2009

Lisa F Sitompul whispers to the angels of dawn, Oh please let me have this strength back..The time when I thought nobody care,you showed me love,but do I deserve it? Should I have the fear of loosing? Or should I learn that nothing lasts forever? The thing is,human is a forgetful being,sometimes we have the heart to walk on without looking back n we forgot that we were born by love.. >>>November 12th 2009

Lisa F Sitompul whispers 2her wounded heart, "Let it be,dear..remember 2b good 2urself as the proof on how much u cherish these feelings that u hold on2" Should I trade my heart on something with no beat or soul in it? Should I abandon my true feelings n walk 2the other way,n pretend that I don't have the heart 2keep on believing that... I'm actually loved? OR, Should I actually close the 'gate' n sealed it 4ever? Uhm,please..tell me.. >>>November 10th 2009

Lisa F Sitompul says, When I took the chance 2blaze my new trail,I had no demand on finding a beautiful path full of flower on the side of it.I didn't have the idea on what n when I would reach what I've been looking4.But I assure u,I'll get there,somehow.I have u inside me,u've given me the strength n the courage 2keep on moving 4war...d.N I believe,I'll receive God's generousity by believing in what I'm holding on 2now >>>November 9th 2009

Lisa F Sitompul is in her bubble zone,floating high up up up 2the sky,wishing that I can reach the clouds.. I don't want anyone 2reach me..I love what I have now,my babies are my wings,the moments when I hold them is my sanctuary from being lonely n their kisses are the cure 2my broken heart. I'm not going back 2the path that I've tak...en before,if the only way 2survive is 2stay in my fortress, those walls shall I stay then.. >>>November 8th 2009

Lisa F Sitompul is on her way to the most rightful place... "Hear my plea,oh dear Lord.. Please forgive me for being so cruel to myself n to the one that I care so deeply.. Let me have the strength n the courage to open this heart of mine n spread this love that U've given me as a blessing to the one who deserve it.." >>>November 8th 2009

Lisa F Sitompul whispers, "Let me sing oh dear Lord, let me rejoice the strength that U've given me to always carry on, bless this smile of mine as a gift to everyone to always believe in hope." A simple wish for all my dear friends and family, may it become the blessing in this lovely Sunday dawn to all... God be with you all >>>November 8th 2009

Lisa F Sitompul says, " has so much to offer! My life is beautiful, n I met so many amazing n beautiful people along the way too! I opened the way for love to found me by funny chances, by accidental clicks by my fingers, by un-explained events, by unusual acquaintance and by unpredictable discoveries too!" (quoted from Lisa's Note, "The Invisible SIGNATURE of a simple love from the past") >>>November 7th 2009

Lisa F Sitompul says, "The true essense of believing in ur strength is to never stop saying to ur heart that u will be alright..The sun may stop shining,the clouds may stark up ur sky,or even worse.. U will never have the power 2change the world n the way of people's thinking,but u know what's in u,let ur heart has the courage to say,...'Let it be' n enjoy the silence wind blows the tune that only u can hear..n let it be ur serenity.." >>>November 6th 2009

Lisa F Sitompul says, "Who do u turn to when the only person in the world that can stop u from crying,is exactly the one making u cry? So...don't run when I push u away.Don't u know that's when I need u the most n want u to stay? N when u remember how hard it is to change urself,u begin to understand why do we only have a little chance on changing others.." >>>November 6th 2009

Lisa F Sitompul says, I'vejust learned that a true gentleman is not the man that has the courage 2tell u how much he loves u or how much he wanted u. A true gentleman is the man who have the heart 2forbid his eager heart 2hold u in his arms,but somehow,he never left u,excel his wisdom as the proof on how much he loves u n reaching his... goals as if those goals are ur heart. Hold on 2what he is now as strong as he's holding on u,inside >>>November 5th 2009

Lisa F Sitompul lagi mikir,hari ini enaknya ngapain ya sm 3rd graders?Kalau sama 2nd graders,hari ini Lisa janji kita bakalan "dancing like jumping deers in a lovely spring morning" Tiba2 inget Jeffrey waktu Lisa tny, "Jeffrey dear,what's 'belajar menyanyi in English?" dg 'PD' nya Jeffrey jwb "BELAJAR MENYANYI" dg aksen bule nyasar sm...bil memutar kepalanya! Hampir aja Lisa gigit anak orang saking gemesnya..hihihi >>>November 5th 2009

Lisa F Sitompul has just awaken about almost two hours ago.. Listening to "At Last" by Etta James,continued with "I'll never fall in love again" by Tom Jones, reminds me on something. Papa said once,"To reach the peak of a mountain needs hard work n a long painful journey,but it takes one step to jump from the edge of a cliff". Thank u for those words,pa.. >>>November 4th 2009

Lisa F Sitompul quoted the closing of "What a great morning" a note by me.. “I’m glad for God sent me His angels n reminded me 2be grateful for my life by someone else’s smile,maybe those people are not real angels,but 4me,I would always remember their smile for they have just brighten my day” suddenly I saw a group of angels right... in front of me,all of my students were smiling that time,n what a great sight 2see 2start a day! >>> November 2nd 2009

Lisa F Sitompul is saying her plea to God.. Dear Lord,please give me the heart 2do what's right..Grant me the strength 2carry on n make the best out of everything for the people that I love.. In this lovely morning,I beg for Ur mercy,for I do have a question 2ask U,oh dear Lord..Why?U've taught me 2feel,but U also want me 2let go in t...he same time..or am I not worthy enough 2have the right 2feel?If that me,oh dear Lord..>>> November 2nd 2009

Lisa F Sitompul berpikir..trkadang apa yg baik/buruk itu bknlah sesuatu yg muncul atau timbul scra alami.. Terkdg kita hrs mengambil kptsan dlm sesuatu seakan2 sglnya bergantung pd kita,walau sesungguhnya kitapn tdk pny jwbn atas apa yg tlh terjadi. Uhm..Lisa rs..terkadang.. mengabaikn apa yg hati kecil kt rasakn adlh hal yg tepat utk kt lakukn..n mngkn..itulah wktnya kt melakukn hal yg kt rasa baik n bnar sekalipn sngt menyakitkn.. >>>November 2nd 2009

Lisa F Sitompul is cheering..YIPPIEKAIYE!! Kata papa dulu.."A diamond is only a piece of coal with no pressure occured to it!" Lisa baru sadar...papa n mama dulu panggil Lisa "berlianku" bkn hny krn sayang..TAPI krn maksud 'dalam' tertentu..uhm.. memanggil dg sebutan itu mudah..tapi menciptakan atau membuat seseorang utk layak dg panggilan itu pasti bukan pekerjaan yg mudah..I love both of U,Miss u like crazy pa,ma..>>>November 1st 2009

Lisa F Sitompul whispers.. If only I can make a wish tonight,I would wish to ..go back 2the time when I was only 16,to the nights when I could sit on the roof of my house,looked at the stars n had so many funny thoughts inside my heart n mind.. ..dancing under the rain.. ..jumping 2my favorite song.. n of course,cruising with my rollerskates..>>>October 31st 2009

Lisa F Sitompul says... Live well, laugh often, and love with all of your heart...n to recognize LOVE... u have to be content to be foolish n innocent, that’s the only way to recognize it as something true and pure...>>>October 31st 2009

Lisa F Sitompul says..Pagi ini,sekitar 68% status berhubungan dg "Missing Someone" ada yg lg missing..ada yg otw to meet the one they've been missing..atau ungkapan lain krn missing..missing n missing.. Uhm..missing is a good sign,berarti kt msh bisa "merasakan".. Tapi bagaimana dg org yg sulit merasakan "missing" ini krn factor menut...up diri krn takut terluka? N mgkn satu2nya cara bertahan adlh dg "tdk/berhenti merasakan" >>>October 31st 2009

Lisa F Sitompul whispers... Dear Lord, what I need to live has been given to me by YOU... and how blessed I am for why I need to live has been given to me by the love of my babies and the people in my surroundings.. If I may say that I'm tired of walking,YOU'll ease my sore as YOU always hold my hand,so I never walk alone anymore >>>October 30th 2009

Lisa F Sitompul has just said to a dear friend, "Complication is one of the way to excel your abilities and strength,it's the blessings in disguise for us to learn more to see things in different point of view n how to manage to get through the labyrinth of life..." uhm...easy to say,hard to apply...even for me.. >>>October 29th 2009

Lisa F Sitompul just hold her lil Elijah.. betapa bahagianya begitu sampai rumah mendengar suara ciliknya berkata, "Mommy..Aku baru aja masakin mom sesuatu yg Istimewa! Aku tahu mommy pasti capek n laper!!" Ugh..omelete yg dibuatin Elijah..Super Duper Blooper Mucho Grande UENNAAK!!! Langsung disikat deh..thank u,my precious!! My Baby is turning into a little Man! He knows how to make a girl so...HAPPY!! >>>October 28th 2009

Lisa F Sitompul says.. Oh dear Lord hear my plea.. let this soul survive n be the one that have the strength 2lift other's burden. let this heart always filled by courage to stand tall n be the evidence of Ur Glory.. Bless the day as the best day 2everyone n let all experience Ur LOVE..bless my nation n those who always give their best 2o to contribute their life for a better day to everyone,TQ oh dear Lord,Amen. >>>October 28th 2009

Lisa F Sitompul says, The world has thousands of ways 2break things 2pieces,but I had gained the courage 2pick up each single piece n put it all back 2gether.N I did it all by the will 2survive this life w/ the memory of the people that I love the most,n somehow,God had granted me w/ a great blessing 2cherish n acknowledge the love n attentions given 2me as God given gift that I can collect n spread at the same time >>>October 27th 2009

Lisa F Sitompul says, I have no intention to win anyone's heart,but I also try not 2limit myself 2put these arms 2hold..maybe it's nice 2have someone 2be with,but I had learned that one of the best blessing is having a heart with the ability 2b grateful... >>>October 27th 2009

Lisa F Sitompul says, Gratitude unlocks the fullness of life. It turns what we have into more than enough n beyond that. It turns denial into acceptance,chaos to order,confusion to clarity. It can turn a meal into a feast,a house into a home,a stranger into a dearest friend. Gratitude makes sense of our past, n I wish that this gratitude had become a blessing to both of us,n creates a vision for tomorrow... >>>October 26th 2009

Lisa F Sitompul said months ago... "Being crazy sometimes isn't crazy enough... So, if you want to jump, shout, and eat a bucket of ice cream, just do it! Maybe it will ease your mind after a quite hard day... Hihihihih... Yippie to my happy heart...!!" What a day....what a day....! >>>October 24th 2009

Lisa F Sitompul whispers to God... Dear Lord,hear my plea... Bless thy who say prayer for the unknown... Bless thy who cherish me as a part of their life even though we're far apart... and please oh dear Lord, bless thy hearts who keep me inside...Amen >>>October 23rd 2009

Lisa F Sitompul says, "The only essence of having a happy heart is to keep on smiling when someone hurt u dirrectly to ur heart.Nothing certain in this world n the only way to survive is to believe that we'll b alright as long as we do everything w/ LOVE as the foundation to whatever we do.. >>>October 23rd 2009

Lisa F Sitompul says, The only perfect way to survive urself from the torturing feeling of missing someone is to HOLD ON n BELIEVE in the strength of what u both have inside.. No one has to know how it feels for u have ur own way to feel it,let it be the remembrance of how beautiful when u have the ability to cherish whatever u've shared,every smile,every kiss,every touch.. >>>October 20th 2009

Lisa F Sitompul Para mi uno y Ășnico prĂ­ncipe, el que ama a la luna...
(For my one and only prince, the one who loves the moon)

In Memoriam,
*** PANGERAN ADIL SITOMPUL March 25th 1947 - October 20th 1994 ***

el que ama a la LUNA...
*** LUCIA CHANDRA SITOMPUL October 16th 1956 - April 30th 1996 *** >>>Oct 20th 2009

Lisa F Sitompul is listening to "Always on my mind" by Michael Buble.. Oct 16th,ma's B'day. Oct 18th,papa called n said, "Ur mom cried when ur friend came with the cake n told us that u asked her to buy it for ur mom..U created as if u were there,dear..u were the best thing that ur mom n I could ever had" Pa..u left me exactly 2 days ...after that call,sometime I wonder..Why did u leave me if I'm such a precious treasure to u? >>>October 19th 2009

Lisa F Sitompul says,if you ever ask: Where do we go from here? Just make the 1st footstep,I have no fear on walking.. What's next? Another journey,a new adventure ahead.. Where can I find u? I haven't moved an inch,I'm here,waiting for u.. What should I say to myself when I look at the mirror n look at my empty eyes? Tell urself,I'm loved,I'm blessed n I'm strong enough to hold on.. >>>October 19th 2009

Lisa F Sitompul thinks, "A true test of a person's character is not what this person does in the light,but what he/she does in the dark.. It's easy to decide what we should do in the presence of others,but can u make up ur mind what u should do when no eyes are looking at u?" Well,I guess that's why God blessed each one of us with something that we call as "CONSCIOUS" >>>October 19th 2009

The invisible SIGNATURE of a simple love from the past

Anyone can catch your eye, but it takes someone special to catch your heart, I guess the world measures beauty by what eyes can see, but the heart measure love by what it can feel inside.

Have you ever thought that you might just open a sealed door? Or you might just hand over the key of someone heart without realizing it? And what do you expect when something like this happened to you?

I wrote once, meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice, but falling in love with you was something that I had no control over. And I meant every single word of it! Have you ever ask yourself why this and that? And being in love or having the honor to feel love is not always having this loved one in your arms. I guess we all have to learn that the only way to cherish what we have inside is to have the courage to stand on where we should stand.

It will never easy, believe me, but what is the best remedy of love than to keep loving no matter what? I found that love is not something that we search, it works the opposite way. We have to let love discovers us, let this amazing thing become something unknown and maybe, it might have to be something unrevealed too. If it does, what will you do? Cry your eyes out for you’ve lost the chance? Make it as something worth a fight? Or?

Do any of us have the strength and the courage to let it be as something that we only feel inside? Will you have the courage to create a maze inside your heart and mind, and put this unconditional love right in the middle and the only person who knows the way in is you? Let this place be the beautiful hiding place, the place where you can lay down on the wet grass, look at the stars alone, and the only way for anyone to find you are when you walk out from that maze.

Nothing is certain in this life, I can assure you that! I was proposed by a man after he interviewed me for a job once. I thought I was in a kind of a candid camera show or something like that! But it didn’t, he meant every word and it scared the shit out of me!

The moment I met one of my best friends and told her what happened, she said, “I’m not surprised, you’re an extra-ordinary person, so, if something unusual and extra-ordinary thing occurred to you, I’m not surprised!” We had some discussion on that matter and she said again, “Don’t you know that you have a colorful life? And that what makes you so special, you’re one of a kind”.

Not long after that, a dear old friend came all the way from Cairo to visit me. And when I replied to his lunch invitation, asked him what brings him here to Jakarta, Indonesia, he answered in a short sentence, “I came for you, I want to marry you, bring you home and love you till the end of my days.” I was stunned, didn’t know what to say, the last time we met was in Melbourne back in 1993-1994, he was a Turkish student, one of my friend in my Asian Business Culture Class, back in Melbourne.

We never dated, we even never sat on the same table for lunch and by the name of the universe, the only conversation that we had back then was when we were looking at the names of horses on The Australia’s Day Horse Race! We found each other by the help of our friend in Tokyo, and about a month after our first contact after so many years he came to visit, but, what makes him came to me after he moved to Cairo and continued his career as a lawyer there!

Well, beside the fact that I don’t really want to know or ask God on this and that about the things that I experienced, I also have no idea what love is, but I do believe in something, that love had discovered me with its certain funny and in an unexpected way too. I came to a point and asked my self…

Will I’d be so lovable if I’m an ordinary person? No! Being different, unique and a bit strange had led me to the point that I stand now, and it all didn’t happen by ordinary reasons. I experienced so many amazing things almost all my life, and even though I chosen the wrong path once, I guess, that wrong full of storm and disappointments path had led me to the path that I walk on now.

I’m glad to say, that since I decided to find myself and my dreams, I found that life has so much to offer! My life is beautiful, and I met so many amazing and beautiful people along the way too! I opened the way for love to found me by funny chances, by accidental clicks which done by my fingers, by un-explained events, by unusual acquaintance and by unpredictable discoveries too!

I think, I have the courage to say this, I might have no chance to find someone to hold me and love me the way I am, but I guess I’m happy enough to know that I have someone out there loving me in his own certain way. I don’t need to hear the whisper of those amazing “I love you” words from his lips, for he has showed it in so many amazing un-explained ways. And what a great thing to say, that my life is like a beautiful stanza written by great poet, since I know that I’m a complete person (funny, strange, unique, and a bit annoying sometime) who fills someone’s heart from the moment he opens his eyes in the morning till the time he closes his eyes to sleep each night…Once again, do I need to hear his recognition on that matter? You tell me, but if I have the honor to answer, I would gaily said, "I don't think so..."

So, finally…, a wise man said once "great things are simple, and simple things are great", and I read once that "great thing comes in a small package", uhm... I guess the greatness of love is also shown by simple things that someone does every day. And those things aren't have to be something that he does well consciously, as simple as a smile when he looked at a name in a list is a GRAND SIGNATURE to what he feels and cherishes inside...

Love to you all,


Lisa Fransiska Sitompul
November 5th 2009

It's not a love poem nor a love note, it's just something that I thought worth to write

Hear me, oh pale moon, tell me that I have the right to dream, you know this heart will have no will to ask more than that...

Dont't you know that the only place that I want to be is the place with no surface, no barriers...
The only place where you can be alone with me, and you can always have my image to look at...

The best place where you can tell me how much you love me over and over again, with your own language, in silence, in our own serenity...

Never have doubt that your happiness is the wish that I always whisper in my prayers..
Never change the course of ur heart to find ur way back to save me,for I'm enjoying this wonders..

The chance to see the smile n to feel is much more than I ever expected..
The opportunity to gain my strength again by the hope that u've sprinkled each morning is much more than I ever imagined..

Let this remedy of founding each other become our strength to carry on our journey of life...
We will never have to wonder why we didn't bumped to each other earlier, for what we feel inside matters than anything at all, and it had became the reason for us to survive...

When the time comes, I will gain the joy by letting you walk on your way, as much as I will be blessed by the strength to lead mine too...
It will also be the time for me to always believe that somewhere out there, someone think and care for me, someone is there, having me inside, just like the way you always do...

November 5th 2009
Lisa Fransiska Sitompul
ps: I guess I wouldn't dare to call this as a poem, but I really hope these words can be the image of how strong a true, unconditional love can be. And let it be the remembrance on how we can always believe that we will never be alone...

You have me

Maybe I have no place that I can call as ‘home’ to turn to, but I have the heart to say ‘welcome home’ every time you come to me. And I also have the courage to spread these arms of mine to hold you and make you feel like you’re home. You will never find a mansion or a palace to rest your sore soul, but I tell you this, you will always find that my door is unlocked and you will always can step right in to it and find me waiting for you.

I have no power to protect you from the cruelness of the world, but I can assure you that I will never let you walk alone. We’ll get through somehow… We have our love as the reason to survive; we have our faith and prayers as the light in the dark and one more important simple thing is, I believe in you and me. So hold on to me to me tight, let me be your strength as your strength are mine, all we have now is time and that will be enough for us to see things clearer and make our mind on which path that we should take.

All of us have the right to ask God on why and when in our life, but I’ve learned that we have to believe that we also have to make our own destiny. No limit to what we do to make ourselves become stronger and wiser everyday. Be good to ourselves, treat our heart and mind as our precious, be firm on what we dream of, will help us to keep our hope to the sky’s limit. Do we have to wait for a boat to cross a river? Do we have to have wings to fly? Do we have to have everything in life? I don’t think so, the essence of living our life to the fullest is to do our best in everything, make the best effort on whatever we do in our days, keep our heart pure and always see things from the brighter side even in the darkest hour.

Discouragement, loosing the will to survive, and saying ‘this is impossible’ are the things that will always come to us like the fog at dawn. But don’t you know that after every dawn will break a new day, a new sunrise and we have all the right to make that as a new strength to keep on moving forward with the heart full of hopes inside of us. So have no fear oh little one, for we are much better when we’re together than we’re alone, and I can promise you this, you will strong enough to make a start as long as you believe that no matter what happened, you can always make another first step as a start of your grand journey of life…

And finally, I have the courage to say, ‘you have me’, I’m the one who loves you no matter what, as I have someone who always send me prayers and hope everyday, you will always have me to turn to each time you loose your way, and I’m proud to say that I have all the love that the world could offer on a golden platter for me…

A note to all to keep on believing once again and again and again and again…

God be with you all, always, with love…

Lisa Fransiska Sitompul
November 1st 2009

PS: In Memoriam of HERA (Oct 5th 1998-somewhere in May 2005), my beloved, faithful German Shepherd. I love you Hera…leaving you behind was one of the cruelest thing that I’ve ever done in my life, I know I can’t turn back the time, but I cherish each cuddle and every single inch of the streets that we passed together, and having you in my life is one of the way to cherish life itself, kinda missing your funny left ear....hiks

And maybe some of you are asking, why on earth is this woman is having a remembrance of her pet, well, I would say this, simple things are great and great things as simple, and what a great thing when we can cherish a friendship...even the one that we had with our cuddly pet..

The strength of love built by a fragile heart

“Dear Lord, what I need to live has been given to me by You...and how blessed I am for why I need to live has been given to me by the love of my babies and the people in my surroundings..

If I may say that I'm tired of walking, I know that You'll ease my sore
as YOU always hold my hand, so I never walk alone anymore...”

I have no intention to win anyone’s heart, but I also try not to limit myself to put these arms to hold. Maybe it’s nice to have someone to be with, but I had taught that one of the best blessings is having a heart with the ability to be grateful. Gratitude unlocks the fullness of life.

It turns what we have into more than enough and beyond that. It turns denial into acceptance, chaos to order, confusion to clarity. It can turn a meal into a feast, a house into a home, a stranger into a dearest friend. And gratitude makes sense of our past, and I wish that this gratitude had become a blessing to all of us, and creates a vision for tomorrow.

One day, I said to my students, “I believe that one of the reasons why Queen Victoria was such a great leader was because she spent her life with the man that she loved so dearly”. And I also strongly believe that the love that they had shared was completed by the gratitude to what they had and cherish it as something that I may call a heavenly treasure towards each other.
So, if you happened to be having someone that you can call as “MINE”, tell that person that your love will never die, and let it be the strength, let it be the replacement of your loosing moments when you should had the time to say and did some little things to show how grand your love is.
Anyone desires an everlasting unconditional love, even myself, I would give anything to hear someone say to me,

” Tell me that I can hold you forever.
Tell me that I have the right to say how much you had colored my life.
Tell me that I have no fear of loosing you for we both have each other inside.
Tell me that luck has nothing to do with loving you, because the moment we found each other was a beautiful faith, so hold on to me and never let me go”

But we all know that the world has thousands of ways to break things to pieces, but I had gained the courage to pick up each single piece and put it all back together. And I did it all by the will to survive this life with the memory of the people that I love the most. I don’t dream, but somehow, God had granted me with a great blessing to cherish and acknowledge the love and attentions given to me as God given present that I can collect and spread at the same time.

Someday, I will stand on the edge line by the sea with a smile upon my face, with so many lovely memories rushing to get in to my heart. I will have the opportunity to hear each words that I long to hear that touches my foolish heart, for “to be IN LOVE”… you have to be content to be foolish and innocent, that’s the only way to recognize it as something true and pure.
So, finally, I came to my senses…

Do I need to hear those beautiful words from someone’s lips? Do I need to see the eyes to proof that those words are true and came from the depth of someone’s heart?

Well, I would be an ordinary person if I need those things. I guess, having an ability to believe that I can hear it through my heart will make those words even more beautiful; to feel is grander than to hear it in actual words. I think it will be a great discovery when I can feel things beyond words and touches. I believe that the moment I hold my little students in my arms, I can share this hope of loving and being loved as a strong energy, as a gift for them to learn that life has so many things to offer, as the power to get through any kind of obstacles in these unknown journey of life.

And I think, every tender touches, every smiles, every giggles, or every winks, will be the pedestal that I’m loved. For that, when the time of watching the back of someone’s shoulder comes, I wish it will never torn us apart, for loosing will never be a reason to break our precious heart, it will always be the beginning to start a new journey full of hope and great new discoveries…

Love to you all...

Lisa Fransiska Sitompul
October 30th 2009

PS: I dedicate this note to a dear friend of mine, thank you for the prayers ...

If you have to walk on the edge of a cliff

If you have to walk on the edge of a cliff, maybe you have to close your eyes and believe in your heart...

Feel the breeze that touches your skin...

Hear the whispering wind that let your soul to sense the best direction to choose, and make the right steps...

Believe that your whole senses as God's hand are guiding your heart to have the courage and the balance to keep on moving forward...

And when you reach the safe ground, you will have a great smile upon your face, for you have crossed the most dangerous path in your life with just one reason;

" The Great strength to believe that God lives in You, and You have the ability to sense, to feel and to embrace what ever you have in YOU... "

Mine oh Mine

“ Tell me when will you be mine, tell me, quando, quando, quando,
we can share a love divine, please don’t make me wait again.
When will you say yes to me, tell me, quando, quando, quando,
you mean happiness to me, of my life please tell me when…"
quoted from “Quando, quando, quando

Suddenly...simple questions appeared in my mind,

“ Am I worthy enough to have someone that I can call as Mine? ”

“ Is there someone out there is faithful enough to be the only one for me?“

I know we’re all humans, since none of us were born as a perfect person, God even gave us “the free will “ to choose almost everything in life. God himself even let us choose whether we want or we don’t want to love Him as our creator and the One who cares for our life. We all have the previlege to choose whether we want to love someone with all our heart or just be a selfish individual and all we can think about is our comfort. Making someone to be the one that we can call "MINE" is never easy, for loving someone with all our hearts demand everything in our life.

Have you ever whispered to the one you love,
“ Can I be yours, so I can hear u saying, ‘you are mine’ ?”

Will it be just words, or will it be something true and means the world to you?
Will it be just a sudden feelings that you have because of beauty or physical appearance, or will it because you can understand things more while you were together, or will it because you can feel each other without saying things, or will it because you love someone for no special particular reasons at all, and you didn’t realize that you had broken the rules of attractions and hold this person so tight as your precious one?

Well, to the one that I love I would say this…

Since I’m yours, and you shall be forever mine, you can just hold me and say nothing and I can feel every pain, every bitterness, every sad stories that your heart whispers to me.

Since I’m yours, and you shall be forever mine, you can be a little kid and I’ll be your friend, and we can play together as two innocent little kids, learn to be true and pure like we used to be in our early age.

Since I’m yours, and you shall be forever mine, you can travel to the other side of the world, but you still have me beside you all the way, and you see me whenever you see your reflection.

Since I’m yours, and you shall be forever mine, you can touch and kiss every single inch of me, for you have reached and claimed that my heart, my body and my soul are yours now.

And on this stage of feelings that we have towards each other, we both will always have the stanza of listening "I love you" in every moment before we both close our eyes, even though we're not laying next to each other. We shall never sense the loneliness when we're apart, for we have each other in our hearts. And we know, when the moment for us to be together again, the time when we can feel each other's presence would be the most beautiful time in our life...we might have no willing to say anything while we hold each other, but we have the ability to feel how much we love and cherish each other when we hear to both of our heart beat.

And...the moment I became yours and you are mine, I do hope both of us will look after our love as a growing plant…

…the strong feelings that we have to each other is the soil, the source of our life as one…

….the passion in our touch is the water that gave us the new hope to survive…

….and your wisdom is the ray of sun that shines and make our love grow stronger every single day…

And, while we watch “our plant” grow, we shall have the joy of great discovery, the fact that we have each other and the ability to say or feel things beyond words, and we shall feel that we both are being more and more in love every single day. For love itself has no limitation, love has no measurement, and what a wonderful life if we can share this love, and at the end of the day, there will always be the time whether we lay both together or by ourselves and miles away to each other, I still can hear you say, “You are mine “, and for that... I shall be forever yours...

Say it’s me that you adore,