I'll be there for you

I experienced a very interesting journey on the New Year's evening, I had to sit and wait for more than 9 hours to reach Jakarta from a small city in West Java. Normally the journey between the two cities are not more than 3 or 4 hours. Well, actually, I spent almost 8 hours when I came, it wasn't a big deal if I was in a holiday or so, but I was trying to reach someone and I had to meet this person in office hours. So, in short, I spent my last two days of the year in a quite stressful situation, but somehow, I managed to pass through this one, again... Nothing to say, but Thank God for His mercy and kindness!

Never thought I would come to the small town at the first place, but to be honest, it will be the best two last days of a year ever! I was welcomed in a warm family, as I said to my friend, sometimes, I don't understand the way God shows His love to me. But this is one of the thing, I was treated so kind and warm, didn't feel like a stranger at all, met almost all the family's member, even Brownies, the dog of the family. The moment I entered the gate, I already felt the warmth and the caress from all. December was never an easy month for me ever, but I ended the month in a loving and amazing way.

The minute I arrived in Jakarta, I was still far away from where my family was waiting for me, but somehow, I could reach them on time. I cried when my cousin hold me the second I found him, but not like the year before, I cried for I was missing papa and mama so badly, but this time, the tears fell down by the unspoken joy, how I was so glad to be there with them exactly 15 minutes before the countdown of the end of the year! I was almost crying on the way, even though I was sending and receiving messages directly from my cousins,even though I got all the support that I could get at that time! But still, the effort of reaching them was seem quite impossible at that time! But, hey, everything ended up so amazing eventually!

This is worth a diamond to share, when I reached a point where I should get a taxi, the place was dark and empty, then I said to my cousins via message, "Oh, God, please send me a taxi..", Mas Monty, one of my dearest cousin replied, "Keep believing Lisa!" and I walked to a bright spot under the street light, with a prayer, "Oh God, hear my plea, please...You know what I need" and the moment I stepped on the sidewalk, a taxi appeared from the corner, I waved and jumped in the second it stopped right in front of me! The traffic was amazingly stuck and everything seemed like freeze, I dropped a tear when I realized that I might spend my New Year's eve on a taxi for God's sake! But then I said again, "Oh, come on, Lisa, you've reached this far, the angels would even lift this car and carry it if you believe so!". Once again, I closed my eyes, and suddenly I glanced to my left, I realized there was a gab between cars, I asked the taxi driver to go on that gab and we took an alternative road to reach the hotel where my family was waiting for me, and we managed to reach the nearest point, I paid the taxi, jumped out, and after I ran for almost a mile, I reached the place, just on time when the fire works were decorating the sky and I had the chance to witness the event in the arms of my beloved ones!

Maybe not everyone would consider this as a blessing, but for me, this event is a treasure! This is something that I can tell to my children and my grandchildren one day! This is a story that I can tell to my friends or students when they're down and think that things seem aren't worth to fight for! I learned something very precious in my last 48 hours in the year of 2009.

The moment I was in my cousin's arms, I cried, and he said, "Hey, what's the crying for, you're here!" but to be honest, what I heard was, "We're here darling, you have nothing to worry about..".

The world might not be so kind to us, the things aren't seem fair sometimes, but somehow,if we believe, we will always have the heart and the sensitivity to hear "I'll be there for you" from everyone in our surroundings! Just believe and never let go the hope in you, the rainbow will appear and end at the palm of you hands after every storm, and after the light actually filled the sky, you will find that the pennies from heaven is actually exist! It's the sparkling eyes of your loved ones, it's the cheering sound of people saying your name, and even though you're alone, or when the stars isn't shinning for you and everything seems so dark and gloomy, believe in one thing, you are not alone, cherish every smile by looking at your own smile through the mirror, memorize every wink and glance by looking at your reflections on the window of shops that you pass, feel again every kisses by touching your cheeks' skin, and let God do the rest! He will bless you with the love that flows so warm inside, and without you know it, you will have the amazing stanza inside of your heart, and one more amazing thing, you can always say, "I'll be there for you" to anyone, and transfer the same joy beyond compare that you've experienced...

Happy New Year to all my dearest friend and family, and what an honor to say to you all that I'll be there for you too...


Love to you all, always,

Lisa Fransiska Sitompul


PS: I said to a friend once, believe me, you can feel God's love...wake up at the dawn hour, go find the wet grass, walk with your bare feet, feel the cold dews and breath the freshness of the air right before the sun rise on the east side of the sky. Well, I guess I have an addition tip to feel God's love inside each of you...Who knows what will tomorrow bring, who knows where we'll go? But when we have each other, just hold on tight, and the caress doesn't have to be a physical appearance, first you have to believe, then you'll know who to talk to and once again, let the love of God filled your heart in a very simple way the moment you share...

A special thank you to Mama Erry, it's an honor to actually met you in person, ma'am.. To Ikky, I guess I have just being blessed by God by finding a new little brother.. and to Mas Donnie, thank you for everything, you had given an addition love to the word love itself..

To my beloved Family, thank you for all the support and love, to my little brother, Daniel, you're the best and to Mas Agung, thank you, you made things possible.... God bless you all.

Sing it from the heart...a memoir of an old lady

Can anyone give me that perfect explanation why some songs have the exact words to what is happening in our heart? A lullaby can make a baby sleep peacefully; a ballad about a broken hearted soul can make someone shed tears, what is the thing in a song that can turn our mood in a nick or time? Well, it happened to me too, one of the ways to cure my loneliness and the pain of missing my loved ones is through songs, I could feel my mama’s tender kiss and my papa’s tender hugs by listening to their favorite songs…

As I love to sing too, and one of the greatest memory of all is, since the very early time of my life, I surrounded by music! God had blessed me with the ability to sense and feel the music as something beautiful inside me! I guess that’s why there’s a soul in a song, a singer has in important job to deliver the soul of each words. A song writer has to blow the wind of life to each tune, and that’s exactly what happened one day. I was teaching my Broadcasting class, and I asked my students to have an imaginary screen in front of them, and try to picture what scene when they listen to a song that I played while I was reading my narration.

When I started the session, they were stunned, they were looking at me with a certain look in their eyes, sometime they smiled, and I stopped my narration when I realized none of them were writing! After I woke them up from their day dreaming, I continued the session, but still, the same thing happened in about 2 minutes after I started the narration again. But I let them be this time, and funny, I kind of enjoyed the way they look, I could see the innocence eyes full of excitement in their eyes.

And when I finished, they all smiled at me, sparks came out from their eyes, I smiled back at them, but when I asked them to collect their papers, they all shouted, “No miss, we saw the scene but we had no idea to write them in words!” I smiled at them and I asked them to try to do it again at home. And that morning, I made one of my student very happy, I made the narration based on her article project, after the class dismissed, she came to me with full astonishment and told me that she was so happy that I could adapted her idea into the narration.

And something amazing happened, I said,

“It’s just like singing a song dear, you can deliver the message as long as you sing it from the heart.”

She was stunned and smiled, nodded and once again, I saw a great spark came out from her eyes. After she walked away I just realized that I just said something that inspired her so much. I kind of having a moment alone after that, I sat in my room, alone; look at the Narration script again. Well, as I remembered, I opened my messages and read again one particular message that made me think about how people could say something strong enough to change our life’s vision, in a good way though.

And here I am, listening to some Christmas songs, alone, at 3.am. I sang this song once in a church in Melbourne, with a great a choir as my background. It was an honored moment, and I could capture the Holy moments in each words of the song. The only thing that was missing in that amazing moment was the smile of my papa and mama. After the mass finished, I joined the tea time, and a woman came to me, and said

“Love, I was like floating between the clouds when you came to the bridge part, the one when you sang ‘For the bible tells me so..’ with some ‘oh oh..’ right before the over tune. It was so…how may I say.., you delivered the beauty of God’s love, the words seem didn’t really matter,”

I nodded at her like a Japanese girl (I was working in a Japanese restaurant at that time, so I guess it had become a habit) and saying my gratitude for what she’d said, then I smiled, suddenly, she said again,

“And one more thing, love, you have the amazing smile with a tender way of looking at people, “

I smiled again, blinked a couple of times and we ended up talking about this and that, and a week after that lovely evening, I went to her house. She invited me for dinner, and she cooked an amazing Gnoochi, one of my favorite Italian dishes. She’s been living alone for about four years, her husband passed away by cancer, when she served the apple pie, she asked me to accompany her to sit on her back porch, the view is so beautiful there, and we ended up sitting there for almost four hours. When I realized that the time was pretty late already, I said good night and the next thing I remembered was sitting in the tram, feeling so blessed by the time that I’ve shared with the old lady.

Now, I’m telling this story without knowing the old lady’s name. A bit torturing, for I can’t recall my memory, I tried to remember what happened after that night, I was still living in Laverton at that time, I sang in Dandenong, well, as far as I could see, the distance of both places are amazingly far too. I just heard the song that I sang in that church, “Jesus loves me”, but still, I couldn’t remember what happened next?

It’s odd, for I always remembered the moment when I sang in that church, I remembered when that lady talked to me for the first time, and I remembered the dinner, but why couldn’t I remember what happened next? Did I come again to visit her? Did I ever bought some flower and gave them to her? Was I there when she needed me? Did I ever sit on the cute back porch again? Or…, did something so painful happened and made my heart erased everything about the particular event?

I folded my hands just now, said my grace to the Lord, and I also told Him about this special lady, suddenly I kind of looking at her smile in a glance. And now…, I’m smiling alone, ‘Let it snow, let it snow, let it snow’ followed by ‘sleigh ride’ is on, also, in a glance, I remembered the smiles that I’ve seen in my whole life, the smiles of my loved ones, the smile of papa when we played our kites, the smile of mama when I lifted her once from Becak to the Train, back then in Semarang city, during the flood. We were going to Jakarta for my medication; I lifted her on my back for almost 1000metres for I didn’t want her to walk through the flood. And to be honest, I would reverse that time and lifted her again, walk for another thousands of miles, not just meters, if I could see that smile again.

Memories are treasures, I learned to cherish all in a certain frame both in my mind and heart. And if you are alone at the moment, things aren’t seemed right and hurting, try to remember that you made someone smile. Smile and taste the sweet showering inside you, love your life and keep on moving forward, giving your best to the life itself, rejoice in everything and believe me, you’ll gain a new strength, nothing can tear you apart.

It’s almost Christmas, guys…

Feel the love and the warmth of the season in the air, and see the smile of your loved ones, where ever you are, and God as my witness, let me say this simple prayers of mine for all of you. May God blesses you with the ability to sense the love in every smile, every winks, every giggles and every simple things that you share with your loved ones as treasures for eternity…

Lisa Fransiska Sitompul

(is listening I’ll be home for Christmas by Michael Buble)

December 4th 2009 (a day before Santa’s Birthday)

PS: A memoir to an old lady, and to you papa and mama, I miss you both oh so much…

Walking through the bush

Walking through the bush,
what do I hear?
The silence caused me a great fear,
but I have nothing to worry, for I have you near.

Walking through the bush,
what do I smell?
It's not the scent of the sea or the whale,
but then again, it changed from a scent into a sound of a bell.

Walking through the bush,
what do I feel?
My heart's wiggling like an eel,
suddenly my eyes got warm with tears waited to spill.

Walking through the bush,
what do I say?
Will I ever found another way?
To see your face once again, someday...


Saturday, November 21st 2009
Written in less than 10 minutes, in a Writing Session
Lisa Fransiska Sitompul

My Fav-STATUS from October 19th 2009 - November 13th 2009..Counting the hours to enter "the zone"

Lisa F Sitompul is giggling..(even though my eyes hurts) yesterday,my son attended a story telling competition,when he got home,he said, "Mom, aku nggak menang,tapi kok banyak banget sih cewek yang minta berphoto sama aku?" My eyes are hurting n I have 2stay in my room again,being quarantinized..again,but why am I having a wonderful feeling inside?And hey..2day is Friday the 13th right?COOL! >>>November 13th 2009

Lisa F Sitompul says, "The essence of having the conscious 2see things with the eyes of your heart is 2have the courage 2let go things the moment u have them in the palm of your hands.. we all want everything 2work out according 2what we want,but hey,u can't have it all!There's a time when u have 2say 2urself,it's not about having it ...now,it's about the honor of holding 2something that u believe in u" Have a great day!GBU >>> November 12th 2009

Lisa F Sitompul whispers to the angels of dawn, Oh please let me have this strength back..The time when I thought nobody care,you showed me love,but do I deserve it? Should I have the fear of loosing? Or should I learn that nothing lasts forever? The thing is,human is a forgetful being,sometimes we have the heart to walk on without looking back n we forgot that we were born by love.. >>>November 12th 2009

Lisa F Sitompul whispers 2her wounded heart, "Let it be,dear..remember 2b good 2urself as the proof on how much u cherish these feelings that u hold on2" Should I trade my heart on something with no beat or soul in it? Should I abandon my true feelings n walk 2the other way,n pretend that I don't have the heart 2keep on believing that... I'm actually loved? OR, Should I actually close the 'gate' n sealed it 4ever? Uhm,please..tell me.. >>>November 10th 2009

Lisa F Sitompul says, When I took the chance 2blaze my new trail,I had no demand on finding a beautiful path full of flower on the side of it.I didn't have the idea on what n when I would reach what I've been looking4.But I assure u,I'll get there,somehow.I have u inside me,u've given me the strength n the courage 2keep on moving 4war...d.N I believe,I'll receive God's generousity by believing in what I'm holding on 2now >>>November 9th 2009

Lisa F Sitompul is in her bubble zone,floating high up up up 2the sky,wishing that I can reach the clouds.. I don't want anyone 2reach me..I love what I have now,my babies are my wings,the moments when I hold them is my sanctuary from being lonely n their kisses are the cure 2my broken heart. I'm not going back 2the path that I've tak...en before,if the only way 2survive is 2stay in my fortress,well..in those walls shall I stay then.. >>>November 8th 2009

Lisa F Sitompul is on her way to the most rightful place... "Hear my plea,oh dear Lord.. Please forgive me for being so cruel to myself n to the one that I care so deeply.. Let me have the strength n the courage to open this heart of mine n spread this love that U've given me as a blessing to the one who deserve it.." >>>November 8th 2009

Lisa F Sitompul whispers, "Let me sing oh dear Lord, let me rejoice the strength that U've given me to always carry on, bless this smile of mine as a gift to everyone to always believe in hope." A simple wish for all my dear friends and family, may it become the blessing in this lovely Sunday dawn to all... God be with you all >>>November 8th 2009

Lisa F Sitompul says, "...life has so much to offer! My life is beautiful, n I met so many amazing n beautiful people along the way too! I opened the way for love to found me by funny chances, by accidental clicks by my fingers, by un-explained events, by unusual acquaintance and by unpredictable discoveries too!" (quoted from Lisa's Note, "The Invisible SIGNATURE of a simple love from the past") >>>November 7th 2009

Lisa F Sitompul says, "The true essense of believing in ur strength is to never stop saying to ur heart that u will be alright..The sun may stop shining,the clouds may stark up ur sky,or even worse.. U will never have the power 2change the world n the way of people's thinking,but u know what's in u,let ur heart has the courage to say,...'Let it be' n enjoy the silence wind blows the tune that only u can hear..n let it be ur serenity.." >>>November 6th 2009

Lisa F Sitompul says, "Who do u turn to when the only person in the world that can stop u from crying,is exactly the one making u cry? So...don't run when I push u away.Don't u know that's when I need u the most n want u to stay? N when u remember how hard it is to change urself,u begin to understand why do we only have a little chance on changing others.." >>>November 6th 2009

Lisa F Sitompul says, I'vejust learned that a true gentleman is not the man that has the courage 2tell u how much he loves u or how much he wanted u. A true gentleman is the man who have the heart 2forbid his eager heart 2hold u in his arms,but somehow,he never left u,excel his wisdom as the proof on how much he loves u n reaching his... goals as if those goals are ur heart. Hold on 2what he is now as strong as he's holding on u,inside >>>November 5th 2009

Lisa F Sitompul lagi mikir,hari ini enaknya ngapain ya sm 3rd graders?Kalau sama 2nd graders,hari ini Lisa janji kita bakalan "dancing like jumping deers in a lovely spring morning" Tiba2 inget Jeffrey waktu Lisa tny, "Jeffrey dear,what's 'belajar menyanyi in English?" dg 'PD' nya Jeffrey jwb "BELAJAR MENYANYI" dg aksen bule nyasar sm...bil memutar kepalanya! Hampir aja Lisa gigit anak orang saking gemesnya..hihihi >>>November 5th 2009

Lisa F Sitompul has just awaken about almost two hours ago.. Listening to "At Last" by Etta James,continued with "I'll never fall in love again" by Tom Jones, reminds me on something. Papa said once,"To reach the peak of a mountain needs hard work n a long painful journey,but it takes one step to jump from the edge of a cliff". Thank u for those words,pa.. >>>November 4th 2009

Lisa F Sitompul quoted the closing of "What a great morning" a note by me.. “I’m glad for God sent me His angels n reminded me 2be grateful for my life by someone else’s smile,maybe those people are not real angels,but 4me,I would always remember their smile for they have just brighten my day” suddenly I saw a group of angels right... in front of me,all of my students were smiling that time,n what a great sight 2see 2start a day! >>> November 2nd 2009

Lisa F Sitompul is saying her plea to God.. Dear Lord,please give me the heart 2do what's right..Grant me the strength 2carry on n make the best out of everything for the people that I love.. In this lovely morning,I beg for Ur mercy,for I do have a question 2ask U,oh dear Lord..Why?U've taught me 2feel,but U also want me 2let go in t...he same time..or am I not worthy enough 2have the right 2feel?If that so..help me,oh dear Lord..>>> November 2nd 2009

Lisa F Sitompul berpikir..trkadang apa yg baik/buruk itu bknlah sesuatu yg muncul atau timbul scra alami.. Terkdg kita hrs mengambil kptsan dlm sesuatu seakan2 sglnya bergantung pd kita,walau sesungguhnya kitapn tdk pny jwbn atas apa yg tlh terjadi. Uhm..Lisa rs..terkadang.. mengabaikn apa yg hati kecil kt rasakn adlh hal yg tepat utk kt lakukn..n mngkn..itulah wktnya kt melakukn hal yg kt rasa baik n bnar sekalipn sngt menyakitkn.. >>>November 2nd 2009

Lisa F Sitompul is cheering..YIPPIEKAIYE!! Kata papa dulu.."A diamond is only a piece of coal with no pressure occured to it!" Lisa baru sadar...papa n mama dulu panggil Lisa "berlianku" bkn hny krn sayang..TAPI krn maksud 'dalam' tertentu..uhm.. memanggil dg sebutan itu mudah..tapi menciptakan atau membuat seseorang utk layak dipangg...il dg panggilan itu pasti bukan pekerjaan yg mudah..I love both of U,Miss u like crazy pa,ma..>>>November 1st 2009

Lisa F Sitompul whispers.. If only I can make a wish tonight,I would wish to ..go back 2the time when I was only 16,to the nights when I could sit on the roof of my house,looked at the stars n had so many funny thoughts inside my heart n mind.. ..dancing under the rain.. ..jumping 2my favorite song.. n of course,cruising with my rollerskates..>>>October 31st 2009

Lisa F Sitompul says... Live well, laugh often, and love with all of your heart...n to recognize LOVE... u have to be content to be foolish n innocent, that’s the only way to recognize it as something true and pure...>>>October 31st 2009

Lisa F Sitompul says..Pagi ini,sekitar 68% status berhubungan dg "Missing Someone" ada yg lg missing..ada yg otw to meet the one they've been missing..atau ungkapan lain krn missing..missing n missing.. Uhm..missing is a good sign,berarti kt msh bisa "merasakan".. Tapi bagaimana dg org yg sulit merasakan "missing" ini krn factor menut...up diri krn takut terluka? N mgkn satu2nya cara bertahan adlh dg "tdk/berhenti merasakan" >>>October 31st 2009

Lisa F Sitompul whispers... Dear Lord, what I need to live has been given to me by YOU... and how blessed I am for why I need to live has been given to me by the love of my babies and the people in my surroundings.. If I may say that I'm tired of walking,YOU'll ease my sore as YOU always hold my hand,so I never walk alone anymore >>>October 30th 2009

Lisa F Sitompul has just said to a dear friend, "Complication is one of the way to excel your abilities and strength,it's the blessings in disguise for us to learn more to see things in different point of view n how to manage to get through the labyrinth of life..." uhm...easy to say,hard to apply...even for me.. >>>October 29th 2009

Lisa F Sitompul just hold her lil Elijah.. betapa bahagianya begitu sampai rumah mendengar suara ciliknya berkata, "Mommy..Aku baru aja masakin mom sesuatu yg Istimewa! Aku tahu mommy pasti capek n laper!!" Ugh..omelete yg dibuatin Elijah..Super Duper Blooper Mucho Grande UENNAAK!!! Langsung disikat deh..thank u,my precious!! My Baby is turning into a little Man! He knows how to make a girl so...HAPPY!! >>>October 28th 2009

Lisa F Sitompul says.. Oh dear Lord hear my plea.. let this soul survive n be the one that have the strength 2lift other's burden. let this heart always filled by courage to stand tall n be the evidence of Ur Glory.. Bless the day as the best day 2everyone n let all experience Ur LOVE..bless my nation n those who always give their best 2o to contribute their life for a better day to everyone,TQ oh dear Lord,Amen. >>>October 28th 2009

Lisa F Sitompul says, The world has thousands of ways 2break things 2pieces,but I had gained the courage 2pick up each single piece n put it all back 2gether.N I did it all by the will 2survive this life w/ the memory of the people that I love the most,n somehow,God had granted me w/ a great blessing 2cherish n acknowledge the love n attentions given 2me as God given gift that I can collect n spread at the same time >>>October 27th 2009

Lisa F Sitompul says, I have no intention to win anyone's heart,but I also try not 2limit myself 2put these arms 2hold..maybe it's nice 2have someone 2be with,but I had learned that one of the best blessing is having a heart with the ability 2b grateful... >>>October 27th 2009

Lisa F Sitompul says, Gratitude unlocks the fullness of life. It turns what we have into more than enough n beyond that. It turns denial into acceptance,chaos to order,confusion to clarity. It can turn a meal into a feast,a house into a home,a stranger into a dearest friend. Gratitude makes sense of our past, n I wish that this gratitude had become a blessing to both of us,n creates a vision for tomorrow... >>>October 26th 2009

Lisa F Sitompul said months ago... "Being crazy sometimes isn't crazy enough... So, if you want to jump, shout, and eat a bucket of ice cream, just do it! Maybe it will ease your mind after a quite hard day... Hihihihih... Yippie to my happy heart...!!" What a day....what a day....! >>>October 24th 2009

Lisa F Sitompul whispers to God... Dear Lord,hear my plea... Bless thy who say prayer for the unknown... Bless thy who cherish me as a part of their life even though we're far apart... and please oh dear Lord, bless thy hearts who keep me inside...Amen >>>October 23rd 2009

Lisa F Sitompul says, "The only essence of having a happy heart is to keep on smiling when someone hurt u dirrectly to ur heart.Nothing certain in this world n the only way to survive is to believe that we'll b alright as long as we do everything w/ LOVE as the foundation to whatever we do.. >>>October 23rd 2009

Lisa F Sitompul says, The only perfect way to survive urself from the torturing feeling of missing someone is to HOLD ON n BELIEVE in the strength of what u both have inside.. No one has to know how it feels for u have ur own way to feel it,let it be the remembrance of how beautiful when u have the ability to cherish whatever u've shared,every smile,every kiss,every touch.. >>>October 20th 2009


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Lisa F Sitompul Para mi uno y único príncipe, el que ama a la luna...
(For my one and only prince, the one who loves the moon)

In Memoriam,
Mi PRINCIPE...
*** PANGERAN ADIL SITOMPUL March 25th 1947 - October 20th 1994 ***

el que ama a la LUNA...
*** LUCIA CHANDRA SITOMPUL October 16th 1956 - April 30th 1996 *** >>>Oct 20th 2009
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Lisa F Sitompul is listening to "Always on my mind" by Michael Buble.. Oct 16th,ma's B'day. Oct 18th,papa called n said, "Ur mom cried when ur friend came with the cake n told us that u asked her to buy it for ur mom..U created as if u were there,dear..u were the best thing that ur mom n I could ever had" Pa..u left me exactly 2 days ...after that call,sometime I wonder..Why did u leave me if I'm such a precious treasure to u? >>>October 19th 2009

Lisa F Sitompul says,if you ever ask: Where do we go from here? Just make the 1st footstep,I have no fear on walking.. What's next? Another journey,a new adventure ahead.. Where can I find u? I haven't moved an inch,I'm here,waiting for u.. What should I say to myself when I look at the mirror n look at my empty eyes? Tell urself,I'm loved,I'm blessed n I'm strong enough to hold on.. >>>October 19th 2009

Lisa F Sitompul thinks, "A true test of a person's character is not what this person does in the light,but what he/she does in the dark.. It's easy to decide what we should do in the presence of others,but can u make up ur mind what u should do when no eyes are looking at u?" Well,I guess that's why God blessed each one of us with something that we call as "CONSCIOUS" >>>October 19th 2009

The invisible SIGNATURE of a simple love from the past

Anyone can catch your eye, but it takes someone special to catch your heart, I guess the world measures beauty by what eyes can see, but the heart measure love by what it can feel inside.

Have you ever thought that you might just open a sealed door? Or you might just hand over the key of someone heart without realizing it? And what do you expect when something like this happened to you?

I wrote once, meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice, but falling in love with you was something that I had no control over. And I meant every single word of it! Have you ever ask yourself why this and that? And being in love or having the honor to feel love is not always having this loved one in your arms. I guess we all have to learn that the only way to cherish what we have inside is to have the courage to stand on where we should stand.

It will never easy, believe me, but what is the best remedy of love than to keep loving no matter what? I found that love is not something that we search, it works the opposite way. We have to let love discovers us, let this amazing thing become something unknown and maybe, it might have to be something unrevealed too. If it does, what will you do? Cry your eyes out for you’ve lost the chance? Make it as something worth a fight? Or?

Do any of us have the strength and the courage to let it be as something that we only feel inside? Will you have the courage to create a maze inside your heart and mind, and put this unconditional love right in the middle and the only person who knows the way in is you? Let this place be the beautiful hiding place, the place where you can lay down on the wet grass, look at the stars alone, and the only way for anyone to find you are when you walk out from that maze.

Nothing is certain in this life, I can assure you that! I was proposed by a man after he interviewed me for a job once. I thought I was in a kind of a candid camera show or something like that! But it didn’t, he meant every word and it scared the shit out of me!

The moment I met one of my best friends and told her what happened, she said, “I’m not surprised, you’re an extra-ordinary person, so, if something unusual and extra-ordinary thing occurred to you, I’m not surprised!” We had some discussion on that matter and she said again, “Don’t you know that you have a colorful life? And that what makes you so special, you’re one of a kind”.

Not long after that, a dear old friend came all the way from Cairo to visit me. And when I replied to his lunch invitation, asked him what brings him here to Jakarta, Indonesia, he answered in a short sentence, “I came for you, I want to marry you, bring you home and love you till the end of my days.” I was stunned, didn’t know what to say, the last time we met was in Melbourne back in 1993-1994, he was a Turkish student, one of my friend in my Asian Business Culture Class, back in Melbourne.

We never dated, we even never sat on the same table for lunch and by the name of the universe, the only conversation that we had back then was when we were looking at the names of horses on The Australia’s Day Horse Race! We found each other by the help of our friend in Tokyo, and about a month after our first contact after so many years he came to visit, but, what makes him came to me after he moved to Cairo and continued his career as a lawyer there!

Well, beside the fact that I don’t really want to know or ask God on this and that about the things that I experienced, I also have no idea what love is, but I do believe in something, that love had discovered me with its certain funny and in an unexpected way too. I came to a point and asked my self…

Will I’d be so lovable if I’m an ordinary person? No! Being different, unique and a bit strange had led me to the point that I stand now, and it all didn’t happen by ordinary reasons. I experienced so many amazing things almost all my life, and even though I chosen the wrong path once, I guess, that wrong full of storm and disappointments path had led me to the path that I walk on now.

I’m glad to say, that since I decided to find myself and my dreams, I found that life has so much to offer! My life is beautiful, and I met so many amazing and beautiful people along the way too! I opened the way for love to found me by funny chances, by accidental clicks which done by my fingers, by un-explained events, by unusual acquaintance and by unpredictable discoveries too!

I think, I have the courage to say this, I might have no chance to find someone to hold me and love me the way I am, but I guess I’m happy enough to know that I have someone out there loving me in his own certain way. I don’t need to hear the whisper of those amazing “I love you” words from his lips, for he has showed it in so many amazing un-explained ways. And what a great thing to say, that my life is like a beautiful stanza written by great poet, since I know that I’m a complete person (funny, strange, unique, and a bit annoying sometime) who fills someone’s heart from the moment he opens his eyes in the morning till the time he closes his eyes to sleep each night…Once again, do I need to hear his recognition on that matter? You tell me, but if I have the honor to answer, I would gaily said, "I don't think so..."

So, finally…, a wise man said once "great things are simple, and simple things are great", and I read once that "great thing comes in a small package", uhm... I guess the greatness of love is also shown by simple things that someone does every day. And those things aren't have to be something that he does well consciously, as simple as a smile when he looked at a name in a list is a GRAND SIGNATURE to what he feels and cherishes inside...


Love to you all,

Always,

Lisa Fransiska Sitompul
November 5th 2009

It's not a love poem nor a love note, it's just something that I thought worth to write

Hear me, oh pale moon, tell me that I have the right to dream, you know this heart will have no will to ask more than that...

Dont't you know that the only place that I want to be is the place with no surface, no barriers...
The only place where you can be alone with me, and you can always have my image to look at...


The best place where you can tell me how much you love me over and over again, with your own language, in silence, in our own serenity...


Never have doubt that your happiness is the wish that I always whisper in my prayers..
Never change the course of ur heart to find ur way back to save me,for I'm enjoying this wonders..

The chance to see the smile n to feel is much more than I ever expected..
The opportunity to gain my strength again by the hope that u've sprinkled each morning is much more than I ever imagined..


Let this remedy of founding each other become our strength to carry on our journey of life...
We will never have to wonder why we didn't bumped to each other earlier, for what we feel inside matters than anything at all, and it had became the reason for us to survive...


When the time comes, I will gain the joy by letting you walk on your way, as much as I will be blessed by the strength to lead mine too...
It will also be the time for me to always believe that somewhere out there, someone think and care for me, someone is there, having me inside, just like the way you always do...


November 5th 2009
Lisa Fransiska Sitompul
ps: I guess I wouldn't dare to call this as a poem, but I really hope these words can be the image of how strong a true, unconditional love can be. And let it be the remembrance on how we can always believe that we will never be alone...

You have me

Maybe I have no place that I can call as ‘home’ to turn to, but I have the heart to say ‘welcome home’ every time you come to me. And I also have the courage to spread these arms of mine to hold you and make you feel like you’re home. You will never find a mansion or a palace to rest your sore soul, but I tell you this, you will always find that my door is unlocked and you will always can step right in to it and find me waiting for you.

I have no power to protect you from the cruelness of the world, but I can assure you that I will never let you walk alone. We’ll get through somehow… We have our love as the reason to survive; we have our faith and prayers as the light in the dark and one more important simple thing is, I believe in you and me. So hold on to me to me tight, let me be your strength as your strength are mine, all we have now is time and that will be enough for us to see things clearer and make our mind on which path that we should take.

All of us have the right to ask God on why and when in our life, but I’ve learned that we have to believe that we also have to make our own destiny. No limit to what we do to make ourselves become stronger and wiser everyday. Be good to ourselves, treat our heart and mind as our precious, be firm on what we dream of, will help us to keep our hope to the sky’s limit. Do we have to wait for a boat to cross a river? Do we have to have wings to fly? Do we have to have everything in life? I don’t think so, the essence of living our life to the fullest is to do our best in everything, make the best effort on whatever we do in our days, keep our heart pure and always see things from the brighter side even in the darkest hour.

Discouragement, loosing the will to survive, and saying ‘this is impossible’ are the things that will always come to us like the fog at dawn. But don’t you know that after every dawn will break a new day, a new sunrise and we have all the right to make that as a new strength to keep on moving forward with the heart full of hopes inside of us. So have no fear oh little one, for we are much better when we’re together than we’re alone, and I can promise you this, you will strong enough to make a start as long as you believe that no matter what happened, you can always make another first step as a start of your grand journey of life…

And finally, I have the courage to say, ‘you have me’, I’m the one who loves you no matter what, as I have someone who always send me prayers and hope everyday, you will always have me to turn to each time you loose your way, and I’m proud to say that I have all the love that the world could offer on a golden platter for me…

A note to all to keep on believing once again and again and again and again…

God be with you all, always, with love…

Lisa Fransiska Sitompul
November 1st 2009

PS: In Memoriam of HERA (Oct 5th 1998-somewhere in May 2005), my beloved, faithful German Shepherd. I love you Hera…leaving you behind was one of the cruelest thing that I’ve ever done in my life, I know I can’t turn back the time, but I cherish each cuddle and every single inch of the streets that we passed together, and having you in my life is one of the way to cherish life itself, kinda missing your funny left ear....hiks

And maybe some of you are asking, why on earth is this woman is having a remembrance of her pet, well, I would say this, simple things are great and great things as simple, and what a great thing when we can cherish a friendship...even the one that we had with our cuddly pet..