It may sounds so sad ,but then again... Maybe it's good to embrace the pain..

Something that I wrote yesterday morning,

A Genuine forgiveness is when 

* we don't deny our anger,

* deal with the facts caused by pain and hurt occurred,

* feel the sorrow over the circumstances,

* cry your heart out when you can't get the answers to this n that,

but then..wipe up your tears and believe to the great virtue of the brave,given by God. 

It's the best way to embrace your strength and freedom to simply carry on your life with a great tender love within.. 

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Somehow, I kind of feeling that I do aware that our last kiss didn't feel right,

and deep inside, I kind of realising that I will never win this fight.

But then again, this is not a fight at all, this simply something that I can compromise.

While you said, "There's no such happiness without certain struggles and tears of cries".

Someone told me once to be good to myself and be kind to my life, cause this life is the only thing that I have to call as my own.

And this early morning, I found out that I have no one to turn to, I have no one to come and I am totally alone.

Now you tell me, my love....Where can I go from this point of agony?

Who can I call to ease this pain within that kills me so softly?

I woke up after not more than four hours of sleeping, sitting alone and think, "Where am I going from this point of nowhere in this wilderness?"

Then another question popped out, "Why can I be such a bad person and did so many cruelness?"

I never asked God to actually give me what I want.

Cause I know that I have nothing to ask, I just have so many things to vaunt.

Deep inside, I said to Him, "Will you keep him stay just a little longer around me, oh dear Lord?"

But then each time you walked away, I was the one who sat and left behind to realise that your love is something that I won't be able to afford.

This would sound so pathetic, and this is not me at all, or perhaps, the little Lisa who got lost somewhere in the middle of her own heart?

Or, on contrary... This is the point that I have to stand strong and keep on moving forward, leave all behind, simply take a depart?

I never thought of thinking that you're too selfish to acknowledge that what left for me is nothing but pain.

But then again... I sat in silence in this middle of dying inside session and begged for a little strength from God to regain.

Once again I ask you my love...

Why am I here? How can I carry on with this thought  of emptiness within me?

What can I do ? Who would care that I also need a little light to help me to see?

And What if....

What if I just walk away?

Perhaps God would be kind enough to give me a little love within me to carry on...

Maybe He would be generous enough to let me walk in this endless search of something that actually foregone.

And I foreseen that you may not be able to come up with the answers to those questions of mine...

But that's alright, I can understand it perfectly that there are so many things in this life that we can't define.

If God requires me to be a lighthouse, then... THE LIGHTHOUSE shall I be...

And I have decided to stand in this point of stillness, and be grateful to enjoy the sky that paint your image as the only thing that I will see...

Written somewhere in Jakarta,
by Lisa Fransiska Sitompul
May 22nd, 2012

Simple Words to Inspire

A simple description upon how simple things in our lives are able to provide us so much inspirations and encouragements...
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Started by why the ONE letter word: "I" has to be completed
by the powerful TWO-letter word:"WE"...
And the most poisonous THREE-letter: "EGO" has to be killed
in order to value the most used FOUR-letter word: "LOVE".
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By keeping the most pleasing FIVE-letter word:  "SMILE",
we have the strength to share courage by introducing the SIX-letter word: "TENDER" in caring and sincere attentions.
We are also able to spread the greatness of hope by forming a strong generation with the most powerful SEVEN-letter word: "BELIEVE".
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Therefore, we all have the duty to apply this wondrous EIGHT-letter word: “GUIDANCE”
to provide the world with something more with the most powerful NINE-letter word: “KNOWLEDGE”.
And teach ourselves with one of the most essential TEN-letter word: “CONFIDENCE”
to put a little more trust to ourselves by another substantial TEN-letter word: “CONTRIBUTE” and give the world a better tomorrow….
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Have a pleasant day to all my dearest family and friends.
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With Love, always….
Lisa Fransiska Sitompul.
11 May 2012

Bringing everything and more to life

In my opinion,
Hatred and Kindness are the things that I consider free in this world.
But hatred is applicable while kindness is ALWAYS PROFITABLE...

It's a true blessing when I have the courage to always believe that in all goodness that we share will bring us EVERY'THINK and MORE...

For our souls possess the will to think of something better to give to our surrounding...
And the will to bring greater things by our simple thoughts, empowered by the will to nurture our good will within can bring so much more to more lives even more in everything!!

I really love the term...
"Everything and more"
It represents a limitless measurement upon all that we can give...

And the word 'enough' belongs to something that we can possess...
And 'MORE' is the word to everything that we can share to inspire...

Wishing you all a fine and lovely Tuesday, filled with more greatness in all simple things we do in our lives.

God be with you...
Always, with love,
Lisa Fransiska Sitompul
May 8th, 2012

YOU, the exceptional edition

Let me know what you are grateful for in your life.

A day only lasts 24 hours..Let us learn to count our blessings instead of counting what we have lost during that precious moments. Each new day was given as a gift of life, hope and new opportunities...

I'm blessed by this will within me to share with you the understanding that the more we focus on an attitude of gratitude, the more blessed we become.

Most of the time, most people think that living a good life is having all the things that we want in life. While actually, living a good life filled with wisdom is having the ability to let go of things that are out of our reach but still, reaching out without putting a certain limit on the term of 'getting the best' things in life.

This can be applied by making a great effort, putting in a great deal of love and possessing a greater conscious -- reaching the best by giving your best...

By this, who knows, maybe God will let us encounter greater things along the way too and the process of reaching out may lead us to a greater virtue that can become the great strength to carry on.

Shall we all be the exceptional edition by accepting the fact that the best expectation in life is to have no expectations about anything in giving our best to guide, to nurture, to lead and be the inspiration of each simple greatness in life!


Have a pleasant and full of happiness Sunday to all.

With love,
Lisa Fransiska SitompulMay 6th, 2012

The embraceable you

It’s quite difficult to understand things in life. Fair? Nothing really represents what’s fair if we connect things in our lives to what actually occurred.

And a dear friend just reminded me that I answered too many “I don’t know” to her questions upon things that happened to our other friends.

I simply replied her,
“It’s not that I don’t care, I don’t see people the way people use to look to each other, I never consider any bad things or despair as something bad. And when they don’t talk to me about anything, I guess, I have no concern to ask or to bother them with stupid questions that might put a new burden or perhaps new hard things to think about. If they willing to stay in silence and have their problems as their own possession, so be it… Being good to ourselves is very important, and it’s not selfish at all, babe… Take me or leave me, accept me for who I am or walk away, nothing will make me feel like I’m less of a person just because I don’t do things like people used to do. None of us have an obligation to fit anyone’s idea and change to fit anyone’s mold too. Change is not something that we ought to do cause anyone asked us to do, change is something that totally ours to decide to apply into our lives. ”

Suddenly she looked deep into my eyes and said,
“No wonder you have such an enjoyable life, it’s not that you don’t care, you’re one of the most caring people that I’ve ever known, but you really know when to stay away too,” We had a moment of looking at each other, and then I said, “But you can always come to me, darling… I have no fear in giving my best to assure the happiness that you deserve to possess. But still, I may hurt you when you do something stupid and put your soul conscious and happiness at stake. One day you’ll thank me for that,”

We both smiled and I guess she understood that what I’ve said may sound so cold and bitter, but I guess she realize perfectly that I have the ability to trade my life with the best thing that I possibly provide to those that I care so much. We can shed tears when we lost those who we love, but we can smile for they have lived, and we actually had the opportunity upon the acquaintance. We were blessed by the encounter of a personality that might teach us many things to face this life a little bit better.

We can always close our eyes and pray for those who we miss so much to come back, but we can also close our eyes and see all the things that they have left for us to cherish. Feel the blissful feeling upon the ability to be grateful to hold the unseen and embrace it as courage for us to carry on. And when someone actually came into our live, stay for awhile, but then left us behind with no particular explanation for our mind to comprehend, remember that this might be a blessing in disguise for us, for they have left footprints in our hearts, and we are never be the same person anymore, just make sure that we are a better person by this.

Please acknowledge
~ that when you remember me, you have carried something of which I am when I was with you…
~ if I have left some mark on whom I am on whom you are, it means that you can summon me back to your mind even though countless years and miles may stand between us…
~ as long as you remember me, I will never entirely lost, for your kindness in remembering me will remind me to actually exist in giving my best by this wonderful feeling within that I meant something to someone once.
~What we actually left behind is not what engraved in stone monuments, but what is woven into the lives of others. And this also applied to the memories of those who have left me behind, each one of you have carved something beyond words can express.

 And after all are said and done, the word “CHERISH” has become the best word to remember that my life is full of excitements and joyful experiences. And losing those who I cherish so much has giving me the reminiscence that I can get through another 24 hours with a new hope with new beginnings attach to each seconds of my life, with or without those who I need or I love so much.

 In the remembrance of:
Pangeran Adil Sitompul (25 March 1947 – 20 Oct 1994)
Igor Stravinsky M Nainggolan (29 January 1966 – 26 March 2011)

God knows how I miss both of you, papa… mas Igor…
It never was and never will be easy for me to let both of you go… I can remember every touch, every embrace, every soft, short kisses, and every single great wisdom said by both of you.

And to you Mas Igor, thank you for holding me so tight when no one actually had the heart to look at me, and I will cherish each of your embrace as the strength for me to keep on believing that God created me to give the example to my surroundings to laugh often, respect those who in despair and give as much as affection that I possibly provide to my surroundings.

Thank you for calling me every night when no one actually aware that I’m still around…
Thank you for telling me that I’m so precious and how much papa loved me when I have doubts…
Thank you for asking me to keep on smiling and stay pretty…
Thank you for hugging me so tight each time I dropped by, you had managed to make it as my best reason to come back to you over and over again…

And to those who’s suffering from the pain of losing their loved ones… Be happy for the ability to feel, smile and believe that if we have the opportunity to meet them again, they will recognize us. And even though we have separated by death, believe that we can still see their faces, hear their voices and speak to them with the words spoken in our hearts.

Have a pleasant Sunday to all.
God be with each one of us.

With love,
Lisa Fransiska Sitompul
March 25th 2012

The excitement of uncertainties

When there’s a painful despair, full of guilt and regrets occurred in your life, remember that the scar of the pain might stay there, but the burden of guilt is something that you have to try to put down sometimes. You’d be amazed on how the action may give you the enlightenment of forgiveness upon yourself, and hopefully, it will help you to carry on and believe…, that tomorrow is just a day away and you will always have the opportunity to start over again.

And after I wrote that, I read a letter, written by a Helicopter Pilot,

“Dear mom and dad,

When you read this letter, it means that I’m not around anymore.

It’s not that I’m afraid, not in being hurt or killed, well, kind of, but not much…
My only regret will be never to see you two again, and I’ll never see Emily grow up,

But I know she’s in good hands, the best.

What I really afraid of that I’m not let my people down, my crew, these people depend on me,

 They put their lives in my hands, I just can’t fail them.

Now I know that if you get this letter means that I’m dead.

I only hope that I’ve made you proud,

That I did my job,

That I didn’t let down my country, my crew, and my fellow soldiers.

I love you guys; never stop telling Emily how much I love her…

Your daughter,

Karen.

This was the letter that Karen’s parents received after Karen got killed in the Gulf War. And for me, personally, life is like facing our own wars every single day. And most of the times no particular explanation can actually represent the things for us to comprehend.

But then again, I guess life would be too dull if we lose the excitements of uncertainties. The essence of having a fun, lively life is enjoying the ups and down, just like jumping on a trampoline. It’s all about how we enjoy things, looking through things, and the higher you dare to jump, the better jumper you got to be. And trust me; the greater the challenge, the better point of view we require to possess, and this definitely will exercise our courage and ability in having better acceptance upon things in life too.

And another new way to deal with disappointments of life is served to us like a delightful desert after a feast of problems and unpleasant events. A day only lasts 24 hours, and just try to always smile upon things occurred in your life, bumps aren’t something good to experience, but it certainly the perfect way to learn a better maneuver.

Have a pleasant evening to all, God loves each one of us.

With Love,

Lisa Fransiska Sitompul

20 March 2012